Trust me, I've never been so much disappointed of myself not until last night. I've never felt that I'm rejected by "people" this much until last night. And trust me again, I've never ever felt that I'm entirely and harshly tired of my life until last night came. And I've tried to pick myself alone, but I failed. I tried not to worry by shouting for help with the people I love the most and the ones who are most important to me but I end up getting more disappointed.

I've tried to look at the sky today and it's sunny but It's so distant to me.. I cannot feel the sun rays harming my skin. I cannot feel any warmth. I want to see a light coming from your hearts, a warm heart that coming from your souls. A closer ears that's willing to listen to my tears that falls from time to time. I'm a crybaby at heart, yes I am. I know tears never solved my problems. But this is the only way I show how sad I am, and this is how I show.. how "people" really do not understand.


So much for now.