sick sucks
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
pag minamalas ka nga naman, oo.
the moment I woke up I felt heat. hindi init ng sikat ng araw pero, init ng katawan. stupidity. may sakit ako. nakakainis! wrong timing. busy ako tapos, magkakasakit ng ganito. so nung umaga, nahihilo ako at may sinat.
salamat sa Diyos at mapapasa na namin ang project na malaking periodic table sa Chem. talaga namang paspasan dahil ang mga teachers, magcocompute na ng grades. Math Class, medyo pinagpapawisan na ako. tapos, nung Biology, ayun. natuluyan na. nilalamig na ako. ang sakit na naman ng puson ko. tapos, nanenermon pa maigi yung teacher, haha. compare na naman siya ng comnpare as usual. ayun, kasabay ng sermon at init ng ulo ng teacher namin. lalo din akong nainit. kainis.
di na ako kumain ng break time, natulog ako.
Filipino time. nilalamig pa rin ako, sinamahan na ng sakit ng ulo hanggang Social Studies Class yun. tapos, feeling ko. nasusuka na rin ako, Diyos ko. and my bad feeling made me decided na mag-half day na. aww. naiisip ko rin sana groupmates ko sa PE dahil ako yung gumawa ng steps, akin yung casette at pasaway ang ibang memebers. naisip ko rin yung sa role play. kaso, sorry. ang sama ng katawan ko.
so, bakit ganoon? sabay kaming may sakit? at bakit nagkakasakit ako kadalasan pag heartbroken? hahaha. at pag laging magsisismula ang august? uyy. weird. :p
yun. magpapahinga na ako.
the moment I woke up I felt heat. hindi init ng sikat ng araw pero, init ng katawan. stupidity. may sakit ako. nakakainis! wrong timing. busy ako tapos, magkakasakit ng ganito. so nung umaga, nahihilo ako at may sinat.
salamat sa Diyos at mapapasa na namin ang project na malaking periodic table sa Chem. talaga namang paspasan dahil ang mga teachers, magcocompute na ng grades. Math Class, medyo pinagpapawisan na ako. tapos, nung Biology, ayun. natuluyan na. nilalamig na ako. ang sakit na naman ng puson ko. tapos, nanenermon pa maigi yung teacher, haha. compare na naman siya ng comnpare as usual. ayun, kasabay ng sermon at init ng ulo ng teacher namin. lalo din akong nainit. kainis.
di na ako kumain ng break time, natulog ako.
Filipino time. nilalamig pa rin ako, sinamahan na ng sakit ng ulo hanggang Social Studies Class yun. tapos, feeling ko. nasusuka na rin ako, Diyos ko. and my bad feeling made me decided na mag-half day na. aww. naiisip ko rin sana groupmates ko sa PE dahil ako yung gumawa ng steps, akin yung casette at pasaway ang ibang memebers. naisip ko rin yung sa role play. kaso, sorry. ang sama ng katawan ko.
so, bakit ganoon? sabay kaming may sakit? at bakit nagkakasakit ako kadalasan pag heartbroken? hahaha. at pag laging magsisismula ang august? uyy. weird. :p
yun. magpapahinga na ako.
Labels: sick
upset.
Monday, July 30, 2007
hmm.
boring. yes, it is.
almost the whole day I felt being uneasy. pero, masaya. di lang talaga ako comfortable.
can't think of what will I post. hahaha. :]]
all i remebered, inaantok ako. tapos, medyo may upset stomach ako. tsss.
muntik na rin akong ma-zero sa Quiz sa CL. tapos, naalala pa yung play. asar. ayun, bukas na lang raw yung play namin sa CL. badtrip. naalala pa. hahaha.
tapos, first time namin nag-theme writing kanina. haha. ayun. nagpractice naman kami kahit papaano nung uwian para sa aming practical. nakakagago rin yung ibang kagroup ko, hanggang ngayon bawal raw sila magpractice. pota. exam yun eh.
i miss chamy. :((
yun lang.
boring. yes, it is.
almost the whole day I felt being uneasy. pero, masaya. di lang talaga ako comfortable.
can't think of what will I post. hahaha. :]]
all i remebered, inaantok ako. tapos, medyo may upset stomach ako. tsss.
muntik na rin akong ma-zero sa Quiz sa CL. tapos, naalala pa yung play. asar. ayun, bukas na lang raw yung play namin sa CL. badtrip. naalala pa. hahaha.
tapos, first time namin nag-theme writing kanina. haha. ayun. nagpractice naman kami kahit papaano nung uwian para sa aming practical. nakakagago rin yung ibang kagroup ko, hanggang ngayon bawal raw sila magpractice. pota. exam yun eh.
i miss chamy. :((
yun lang.
Labels: boring weird, nonsense
the fields are blooming.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
it was sunday again. :]
woke up so early. did nothng but to surf the internet. I had a misunderstanding with my mom. we were not that talking than the usual, yeah. we agued.
totally, wala ako sa mood. I cried. naiinis ako na ewan. they got me irritated.
so, 2 PM went to Mcdonald's noveleta. ayun, to meet with ate klai. haha. actually, takas ako eh. went with only P340 pesos. kamusta naman yon. haha.
naisipan namin magshopping ni ate klai muna, haha. we will catch the bloomfields that's why we went there. Chicosci sana kaso expected na malabo yun. haha.so, paikot-ikot muna kami. Sale pa pala ang SM BAcoor nun. medyo marami rin ang tao.
3:30. entered the activity area. tiningnan pa kami ni Ms. Carla at binantayan. hahaha. the gig was so much fun. It was my first time. haha. but then I realized na okay rin pala music nila. though, di ako mahilig at first with that type of music, sooner I'll get used to it. haha.
and because, I don't have money anymore. ayun. basta. masaya ako. haha. for every gig naman. haha. music talaga o. iba dating sa akin. :p
with jayjay.
with rocky
I got home 7:30. medyo nainis lang ako kasi yung tita ko, parang walang care. porket, walang tao sa amin.
Oh by the way, our church will have a new priest. :( awww. no reason at all nga bakit aalis si Fr. Inihay eh. malabo ang reason na sinabi kung bakit. hindi rin namin alam. aww. :((
so there. haha. tomorrow will be moday again. we need to really pracice for our practical in P.E. for sure next week will be my busy week. :|
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July 29, 2006. last year's FS Night. okay, i'll start reminscing.
basta, ang tanda ko. [haha. sige joy] I was wearing orange. aww. haha. ayun. masaya naman ako nun. I had only 3 dances, my first crush. my first and last dance and the first guy whom I made cry. haha. first and last, si Jan2. first crush si Alain nung Sr. Prep tapos, first na na napaiyak ko si Ronnie. haha. :]]
ayun lang. haha. :))
woke up so early. did nothng but to surf the internet. I had a misunderstanding with my mom. we were not that talking than the usual, yeah. we agued.
totally, wala ako sa mood. I cried. naiinis ako na ewan. they got me irritated.
so, 2 PM went to Mcdonald's noveleta. ayun, to meet with ate klai. haha. actually, takas ako eh. went with only P340 pesos. kamusta naman yon. haha.
naisipan namin magshopping ni ate klai muna, haha. we will catch the bloomfields that's why we went there. Chicosci sana kaso expected na malabo yun. haha.so, paikot-ikot muna kami. Sale pa pala ang SM BAcoor nun. medyo marami rin ang tao.
3:30. entered the activity area. tiningnan pa kami ni Ms. Carla at binantayan. hahaha. the gig was so much fun. It was my first time. haha. but then I realized na okay rin pala music nila. though, di ako mahilig at first with that type of music, sooner I'll get used to it. haha.
and because, I don't have money anymore. ayun. basta. masaya ako. haha. for every gig naman. haha. music talaga o. iba dating sa akin. :p
with jayjay.
with rocky
I got home 7:30. medyo nainis lang ako kasi yung tita ko, parang walang care. porket, walang tao sa amin.
Oh by the way, our church will have a new priest. :( awww. no reason at all nga bakit aalis si Fr. Inihay eh. malabo ang reason na sinabi kung bakit. hindi rin namin alam. aww. :((
so there. haha. tomorrow will be moday again. we need to really pracice for our practical in P.E. for sure next week will be my busy week. :|
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July 29, 2006. last year's FS Night. okay, i'll start reminscing.
basta, ang tanda ko. [haha. sige joy] I was wearing orange. aww. haha. ayun. masaya naman ako nun. I had only 3 dances, my first crush. my first and last dance and the first guy whom I made cry. haha. first and last, si Jan2. first crush si Alain nung Sr. Prep tapos, first na na napaiyak ko si Ronnie. haha. :]]
ayun lang. haha. :))
Labels: gig, happy memories
biglang ayaw
Saturday, July 28, 2007
saturday is a busy day.
couple of minutes after I woke up I surf the internet already got shocked with what I saw. ano? the phot above. nagulat talaga ako. when I was in grade 5 kasi, someone get used of calling me ligaya. naalala ko lang. why ligaya? the tagalog of joy is ligaya. so, ano ibig sabihin niyan? :| labooo.
nung elocution day pa itong pic na ito e. bigay ni anelom. stolen niya sa akin, parang senti na senti naman ako niyan. LOL. hahaha.
by 12:30 went at Mcdonald's noveleta. inintay si Pam at Tonya. went at Angelique's place for our practice sa Practical sa PE. nung una bored ako. ba naman, nagpunta muna kami sa Comp Shop nina Angelique. tapos, nag-02Jam sila. eh, hello. di ako marunong nun. saka di ako nahilig sa mga ganun eh. hahaha. tapos, nagpa-burn na rin kami ng CD na gagamitin sa pratical. cool. :p
pagakablik namin sa house nina Angelique, seryosong pratice na. ayun, after 10 mins yata merienda na. bilis noh? haha. tapos, practice ulit. haha. ayun, tapos umakyat sa rooftop nina gelique, ang cool ng rooftop nila! grabe. ayun. tapos, practice ulit. tapos, rest tapos. umuwi na ako.
6:30 sana nasa bahay na ako, kaso. pag dating ko mismo sa bahay. sabi ng lola ko. punta raw kami sa mga tita jolly ko. sa Binakayan. tsk tsk. ayun, 8 PM na ako nakapahinga. :)
yung pic na yan, galing kay nikka. haha. wala lang. namiss ko lang. =)
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mabadtrip ako sa isang katext ko kanina. nakakainis kasi, basta ang labo. may topic kang pinaguusapan tapos biglang singit na naman. nakakairita. haha. naiirita na rin ako makipagtext sa mga lalaki.
kakaiyak ko lang kanina. putek. nababadtrip na naman ako. bakit sa akin lang sila ganung kastrict? bakit, masaya ba ako dito sa bahay? as if.
yun lang. bad mood na ako eh.
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mabadtrip ako sa isang katext ko kanina. nakakainis kasi, basta ang labo. may topic kang pinaguusapan tapos biglang singit na naman. nakakairita. haha. naiirita na rin ako makipagtext sa mga lalaki.
kakaiyak ko lang kanina. putek. nababadtrip na naman ako. bakit sa akin lang sila ganung kastrict? bakit, masaya ba ako dito sa bahay? as if.
yun lang. bad mood na ako eh.
Labels: busy, mood swings
1/2
Friday, July 27, 2007
malabo pero masaya ako but because of empathy, hindi rin ganung kasaya.
me and my brother went to school so early. mga 6:40? haha. okay, maaga. i brought a cassette player kasi akala ko makakapag-practice for our practical sa P.E. haha. so there, masaya ako nung early morning. may topak. sorta. basta ganun. lahat ng pang-tritrip ginawa namin. nagsayaw pa kami sa room. hello. :p
first class was computer. hands-on ng boy. seatwork ng girls. kwentuhan lang. tawanan. soundtrip kaso kinuha ng division head radio. :p ako pasimuno. :p second subject, Biology. oops. bad mood ang teacher, sermon. haha. pero, okay yung quiz ko. filipino quiz ulit. wala akong makwento. :p
break time was fun. i had fun. haha. nung Chem Class naman dinaldal lang namin teacher namin. kaya ang nangyari more on experiencial nakwento niya kesa sa mismong lesson. hahaha. ang funny. :))
lunch time was a lotta fun. sobrang may topak ako, haha. tapos, sila kasi eh. kumanta ba raw ng "di kita malilimutan." ayun, masaya. tapos, tawa lang ako ng tawa with friends.
quiz sa SS. ayun, okay naman. haha. tapos, math na halos walang ginawa at nakipag kwentuhan lang rin ako. english time na nakikinig pero natingin sa labas. haha. at geom class na free time.
masaya sa school. saya with friends. saya mang-trip.
kaso, umulan.. napagalitan ako ni Sir Alvin. kung may sira na ba raw talaga ako sa ulo. haha. jusko. so, umulan nga. di na rin kami nakapag-practice ng pratical. tsss.
tapos, mga 5 pumunta akong remelville. bahay ni ciarra tapos bahay ni anelom. yun, 6:20. nasa bahay na ulit ako.
kaso, bakit ganun? daming naiinis sa araw ngayon. nabadtrip sila. daming nagkatampuhan. hmm. bat nga kaya. pero, triny ko ayusin problema nung mga ka-batch ko. hay.
yun, medyo nabadtrip ako kasi ilan lang ba kami bukas sa practice sa PEHM. jusko naman. haha. nakakainis eh. bawal silang lahat :))
yun lang. haha.
si chamy may globe na yehey! :)
masaya na rin ako.
--> happy birthday caren barrera. :)
me and my brother went to school so early. mga 6:40? haha. okay, maaga. i brought a cassette player kasi akala ko makakapag-practice for our practical sa P.E. haha. so there, masaya ako nung early morning. may topak. sorta. basta ganun. lahat ng pang-tritrip ginawa namin. nagsayaw pa kami sa room. hello. :p
first class was computer. hands-on ng boy. seatwork ng girls. kwentuhan lang. tawanan. soundtrip kaso kinuha ng division head radio. :p ako pasimuno. :p second subject, Biology. oops. bad mood ang teacher, sermon. haha. pero, okay yung quiz ko. filipino quiz ulit. wala akong makwento. :p
break time was fun. i had fun. haha. nung Chem Class naman dinaldal lang namin teacher namin. kaya ang nangyari more on experiencial nakwento niya kesa sa mismong lesson. hahaha. ang funny. :))
lunch time was a lotta fun. sobrang may topak ako, haha. tapos, sila kasi eh. kumanta ba raw ng "di kita malilimutan." ayun, masaya. tapos, tawa lang ako ng tawa with friends.
quiz sa SS. ayun, okay naman. haha. tapos, math na halos walang ginawa at nakipag kwentuhan lang rin ako. english time na nakikinig pero natingin sa labas. haha. at geom class na free time.
masaya sa school. saya with friends. saya mang-trip.
kaso, umulan.. napagalitan ako ni Sir Alvin. kung may sira na ba raw talaga ako sa ulo. haha. jusko. so, umulan nga. di na rin kami nakapag-practice ng pratical. tsss.
tapos, mga 5 pumunta akong remelville. bahay ni ciarra tapos bahay ni anelom. yun, 6:20. nasa bahay na ulit ako.
kaso, bakit ganun? daming naiinis sa araw ngayon. nabadtrip sila. daming nagkatampuhan. hmm. bat nga kaya. pero, triny ko ayusin problema nung mga ka-batch ko. hay.
yun, medyo nabadtrip ako kasi ilan lang ba kami bukas sa practice sa PEHM. jusko naman. haha. nakakainis eh. bawal silang lahat :))
yun lang. haha.
si chamy may globe na yehey! :)
masaya na rin ako.
--> happy birthday caren barrera. :)
Labels: steady, stories for the day, topak
bc
Thursday, July 26, 2007
it was thursday again. we had 4 quizzes. hmp.
Math, Geom, Chemistry and Computer. pasado naman lahat. haha. but i do not know about Math. hayy.
anyway, what a boring day. haha. wala akong maisip na ikwento eh. basta, medyo boring na masaya rin. okay, malabo.
tss. I am busy again. 3 quiz bukas eh. Biology, Social Studies and Filipino. pwede mo na akong sakalin. haha. ang hihirap e. practice pa namin ng practical. hanggang ngayon wala pa kaming nagagawa. :(( nakakainis naman talaga o!
I repeat, I am busy. haha.
nung lunch. may humiram ng pamaypay ko. ang lokaret ni gia, ibalik raw ang past. haha. loko. :p
that's it.
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naalala ko lang ito, March 7, 2007. :p
abbey_purple08: sabi ni jo kanina. habang nakanta ng "prinsesa". yan, si joy orio, yan ang prinsesa ko.
joy orio: di nga po? seryoso?
abbey_purple08: oo. promise. selos ako non. haha.
joy orio: anung oras po?
joy orio: haha.
abbey_purple08: ahm. english ata namin. o ss.
abbey_purple08: yun. haha.
abbey_purple08: gosh.
abbey_purple08: ΓΌ
joy orio: wahaha. as in, tumingin po sken?
abbey_purple08: nasa room ka ata non.
joy orio: ahaha. ganun. grabe. hahaha.
abbey_purple08: ung iba mong clasmates kasi, nakaharang sa pinto.
joy orio: ah. tsk. hehe.
joy orio: panu po itsura nia nung sinabi un?
abbey_purple08: nakangiti.
Math, Geom, Chemistry and Computer. pasado naman lahat. haha. but i do not know about Math. hayy.
anyway, what a boring day. haha. wala akong maisip na ikwento eh. basta, medyo boring na masaya rin. okay, malabo.
tss. I am busy again. 3 quiz bukas eh. Biology, Social Studies and Filipino. pwede mo na akong sakalin. haha. ang hihirap e. practice pa namin ng practical. hanggang ngayon wala pa kaming nagagawa. :(( nakakainis naman talaga o!
I repeat, I am busy. haha.
nung lunch. may humiram ng pamaypay ko. ang lokaret ni gia, ibalik raw ang past. haha. loko. :p
that's it.
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naalala ko lang ito, March 7, 2007. :p
abbey_purple08: sabi ni jo kanina. habang nakanta ng "prinsesa". yan, si joy orio, yan ang prinsesa ko.
joy orio: di nga po? seryoso?
abbey_purple08: oo. promise. selos ako non. haha.
joy orio: anung oras po?
joy orio: haha.
abbey_purple08: ahm. english ata namin. o ss.
abbey_purple08: yun. haha.
abbey_purple08: gosh.
abbey_purple08: ΓΌ
joy orio: wahaha. as in, tumingin po sken?
abbey_purple08: nasa room ka ata non.
joy orio: ahaha. ganun. grabe. hahaha.
abbey_purple08: ung iba mong clasmates kasi, nakaharang sa pinto.
joy orio: ah. tsk. hehe.
joy orio: panu po itsura nia nung sinabi un?
abbey_purple08: nakangiti.
namiss ko lang kasi. haha. =))
joseph
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
things will never be the same again. I think this was the beginning of our end.
to tell you honestly, when I was a 11 year old child while I was in grade 5. I never thought of what love is. I never had an idea of how falling in love was. but then, things are always changing as they will. ang this how my story goes. June 23, 2004. It was dismissal time. but this guy came into picture. came into my world and brought change.
boy: miss, pakalog.
girl: magkano po?
boy: kahit magkano.
girl: *kumapa sa bulsa.*
boy: wow. 10 pesos? bait mo naman. tara!
girl: saan po?
boy: sa labas. lilibre kita.
*after lumabas*
boy: libre kita ice cream. 5 pesos naman eh. tig-isa tayo.
girl: o sige po. salamat.
boy: okay lang. pinakalog mo ko ehh. anung pangalan mo?
girl: joy po.
boy: ahh. ako si joseph.
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after that instance this guy became my friend. I was in grade 5 he was in grade 6. we started greeting each other. added each other on friendster, our YM messenger list and somehow knowing each other's phone number. I started to liked him that time. naalala ko pa dati. pag flag ceremony namin at papasok siya ng late kasabay yung kuya niya, my classmates will always tease me while we are singing. kaya napapagalitan kami. haha. so, I remembered and I am missing those days. haha.
that school year was the start of our friendship. sometimes, pag naglalaro siya ng basketball and I was sitting in the corridor he would sit next to me then he will tell a lot os stories like a child na super daldal. naalala ko, chubby pa siya nun. napaka-isip bata pa rin. all was in his head was basketball. basketball. he was the drummer of the drum and lyre band and I was a lyrist. haha. that's why during weekends kahit papaano may paguusap pa rin kami. haha. he was so friendly to other people. and that's what I liked about him. he graduated in elementary and he is.. my crush. :)
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but again. things are constantly changing. It was his birthday July 2005 when I planned to greet him through a letter [the letter says that I am greeting him and that I want to thank him for the friendship we had.] He was in first year then and I was in grade six. when, I gave him the letter he smiled. upon knowing, after their lunch was their math time (their math teacher was same as ours) then he was reading my letter during math period and boom. our math teacher got it. oh hell, that sucks. after that day. my adviser gave me back that letter and tld me not to write letters to boys anymore because it seems like I was making a first move.
I cried. I cried because of it. It was my first time to cry about him. the effect of that incident? everything has changed. It was the start of our seldom talk. It was the start of feeling uneasy about each other. but still, he was my crush. and will always be.
while he was in his freshmen year, my best friend started to got irritated at his characters and traits. some of my friends though of him as 'pacool and mayabang' but though he was that kind. I was the one apologizing for my best friend and friends. that time, I realized I am starting to fall in love. I started to accepting the negative about him. of all the mistakes he did. and I am starting to fight for him.
I graduted elementary and he was still my crush.
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My freshmen year came and he was already a sophomore. He was one of the best things that made my freshmen year a great and memorable one. though, we just talk seldomly. I really really knew that it was love I am feeling towards him. from the start I never expect anything for the two of us. I just told myself that I will show him and let him feel on what I feel for him until the end. and I promised myself that I will just stop by the time he will be taken.
and so, I found out he was courting this girl. the girl that studies at the same school but mind you, we were last classmates when we are in Grade One. Stupidity. so there, he was courting this batchmate of mine. It was fine with me. It is normal for boys to court a girl. but then, I realized sooner as time goes by that his love was also strong for the girl. If you really knew how heaven and earth crushed me that time. I wished things will be normal again. so, I told myself I just wait for the right time that he will appreciate the things I've done for him.
As I became more mature. He was still there for me. I got suspended, he was there. I got low grades, he was there. I am down with sadness just a text message from him could save my day. He was one of the people that I always pray to God will guide. I always prayed that however he can change for the better. I'd be very happy eventhough I cannot change him and other people can. I can wait until the changes about hi will be in good purpose. every night, I asked God to give me the strength to adopt opposite charateristics with this guy.
No one really never knew how to feel. I sacrificed a lot of things for him. I always guide him whenever he needs help. I always try to change hin for the better but not all. I always forgave the shortcomings he has done to me. I always understand that I love him do I should respect him and accept whoever the hell he/she was.
but before my freshmen year ended. I found out. that the girl he was courting and him was in the Mutual Understanding stage, that sucks so I cried. I cried a lot of times because of him. My friends told me he was not handsome. panget. mayabang and all those negative things just to bring him down. but I always try to defend him.
whenever I have time. I am fixing his locker. I mean, the books. Such a mess. haha. But it was surely okay for me.
My summer this year was kinda lonely. telling myself to find another person, though I met Rocky he was not the one I was looking for but the guy who taught me the beauty of falling in love.
Sophomore year came. he was already a junior. 3 years had passed but then, he was still here in my heart, can you find me a reason why I keep on holding on? answer is simple and it is for you to think. for this last two months of being a sophie and being him as my crush and the guy I fell in love with for 3 years I always had fun. Everyday of seeing him motivates me to excel more in my studies. almost everyone knows who the hell he was and I was not ashamed of telling it. Some people say na parang somehow, this guy started to liked me. but no, he was too loyal for the one he loves.
And how I wished I can skip july 17, 2007. The guy I liked so much was already taken by somebody else. :(( Yes, it was reality. have to face it. after my three years on longing desire heaven and earth broke my heart into pieces.
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so now, you already know why the hell im typing this one. I am so sorry. I just can't find the right person to talk with this one and also, I am telling all my thoughts about him. I'll try to move away. so now, I'll clear my mind about him.
Joseph Borja Abundo was his name. he was the best guy I've found for the 14 years of my life. he was the guy I thought I was looking for. He was the guy I sacrifced a lot of things just to prove things. he was the sporty guy that turns to be a varsity and liga hearthrob. he was the guy who fails in Math but always try to understands the lesson. He was the guy na pasaway at maingay sa klase but then sweet in his own side. He was the guy na sobrang tamad minsan pumasok but always says sorry for someone he has hurted. I thought I can still wait for him but I cant. He loves somebody right now. and this someboday loves him too so much. Yes, I want and need him badly but then, things are bound to happen. He wasn't meant for me at all. I just came to realize that love should always be shared by two people. Yes you can love someone who never loves you back but It is the hell hurts. All you can do, was to accept things when they are finally over.
what will I miss about him? ICE CREAM. the number eleven. his smile. his hard laughs. the way he speaks. the way he cares. YM conversations. his childish actions. maharot actions. TAKAW. "batang nike". "psst kindat flying kiss". "miss". "joy, pahiram calcu." fixing his locker. staring at him. "pakalog". "mcdonald's noveleta." his hand writing. his exam papers. the way he was. the way he changed me. the sweetness in him. the pasaway in him. 'batang uhaw' about him. his braces. "Ms. O". his tribal shirt. hot fudge sundae. SHUSHIBEE. thinking of him as koko krunch. TEAZERS at Glorrietta. his converse apparels and lastly, his name. joseph.
By now, I know this thing will happen. problem is, I was not ready to face this thing at this point of time. But I learned a lot from him. three years was long enough. I love him so much that no one can barely explain. I love him so much that only God can reveal. I love him so much that I can let him go and set him free, he is happy already with what he has and I should be.
I thanks God for letting me find a better person than him. Maybe God wants me to wait for the right person for me. Maybe he knows I deserve more than I want. I'll just be happy for what Joseph has came to be. One day I'll see he will again in front of me, we'll be friends again as way want ot used to be, and for the last time. I will miss everything about you. Remember that Joy Angelie R. Orio loved you once in her life. Be happy as I am happy for you. Always pray and take care. I LOVED YOU. GOODBYE. :]
*crying*
to tell you honestly, when I was a 11 year old child while I was in grade 5. I never thought of what love is. I never had an idea of how falling in love was. but then, things are always changing as they will. ang this how my story goes. June 23, 2004. It was dismissal time. but this guy came into picture. came into my world and brought change.
boy: miss, pakalog.
girl: magkano po?
boy: kahit magkano.
girl: *kumapa sa bulsa.*
boy: wow. 10 pesos? bait mo naman. tara!
girl: saan po?
boy: sa labas. lilibre kita.
*after lumabas*
boy: libre kita ice cream. 5 pesos naman eh. tig-isa tayo.
girl: o sige po. salamat.
boy: okay lang. pinakalog mo ko ehh. anung pangalan mo?
girl: joy po.
boy: ahh. ako si joseph.
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after that instance this guy became my friend. I was in grade 5 he was in grade 6. we started greeting each other. added each other on friendster, our YM messenger list and somehow knowing each other's phone number. I started to liked him that time. naalala ko pa dati. pag flag ceremony namin at papasok siya ng late kasabay yung kuya niya, my classmates will always tease me while we are singing. kaya napapagalitan kami. haha. so, I remembered and I am missing those days. haha.
that school year was the start of our friendship. sometimes, pag naglalaro siya ng basketball and I was sitting in the corridor he would sit next to me then he will tell a lot os stories like a child na super daldal. naalala ko, chubby pa siya nun. napaka-isip bata pa rin. all was in his head was basketball. basketball. he was the drummer of the drum and lyre band and I was a lyrist. haha. that's why during weekends kahit papaano may paguusap pa rin kami. haha. he was so friendly to other people. and that's what I liked about him. he graduated in elementary and he is.. my crush. :)
- - -
but again. things are constantly changing. It was his birthday July 2005 when I planned to greet him through a letter [the letter says that I am greeting him and that I want to thank him for the friendship we had.] He was in first year then and I was in grade six. when, I gave him the letter he smiled. upon knowing, after their lunch was their math time (their math teacher was same as ours) then he was reading my letter during math period and boom. our math teacher got it. oh hell, that sucks. after that day. my adviser gave me back that letter and tld me not to write letters to boys anymore because it seems like I was making a first move.
I cried. I cried because of it. It was my first time to cry about him. the effect of that incident? everything has changed. It was the start of our seldom talk. It was the start of feeling uneasy about each other. but still, he was my crush. and will always be.
while he was in his freshmen year, my best friend started to got irritated at his characters and traits. some of my friends though of him as 'pacool and mayabang' but though he was that kind. I was the one apologizing for my best friend and friends. that time, I realized I am starting to fall in love. I started to accepting the negative about him. of all the mistakes he did. and I am starting to fight for him.
I graduted elementary and he was still my crush.
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My freshmen year came and he was already a sophomore. He was one of the best things that made my freshmen year a great and memorable one. though, we just talk seldomly. I really really knew that it was love I am feeling towards him. from the start I never expect anything for the two of us. I just told myself that I will show him and let him feel on what I feel for him until the end. and I promised myself that I will just stop by the time he will be taken.
and so, I found out he was courting this girl. the girl that studies at the same school but mind you, we were last classmates when we are in Grade One. Stupidity. so there, he was courting this batchmate of mine. It was fine with me. It is normal for boys to court a girl. but then, I realized sooner as time goes by that his love was also strong for the girl. If you really knew how heaven and earth crushed me that time. I wished things will be normal again. so, I told myself I just wait for the right time that he will appreciate the things I've done for him.
As I became more mature. He was still there for me. I got suspended, he was there. I got low grades, he was there. I am down with sadness just a text message from him could save my day. He was one of the people that I always pray to God will guide. I always prayed that however he can change for the better. I'd be very happy eventhough I cannot change him and other people can. I can wait until the changes about hi will be in good purpose. every night, I asked God to give me the strength to adopt opposite charateristics with this guy.
No one really never knew how to feel. I sacrificed a lot of things for him. I always guide him whenever he needs help. I always try to change hin for the better but not all. I always forgave the shortcomings he has done to me. I always understand that I love him do I should respect him and accept whoever the hell he/she was.
but before my freshmen year ended. I found out. that the girl he was courting and him was in the Mutual Understanding stage, that sucks so I cried. I cried a lot of times because of him. My friends told me he was not handsome. panget. mayabang and all those negative things just to bring him down. but I always try to defend him.
whenever I have time. I am fixing his locker. I mean, the books. Such a mess. haha. But it was surely okay for me.
My summer this year was kinda lonely. telling myself to find another person, though I met Rocky he was not the one I was looking for but the guy who taught me the beauty of falling in love.
Sophomore year came. he was already a junior. 3 years had passed but then, he was still here in my heart, can you find me a reason why I keep on holding on? answer is simple and it is for you to think. for this last two months of being a sophie and being him as my crush and the guy I fell in love with for 3 years I always had fun. Everyday of seeing him motivates me to excel more in my studies. almost everyone knows who the hell he was and I was not ashamed of telling it. Some people say na parang somehow, this guy started to liked me. but no, he was too loyal for the one he loves.
And how I wished I can skip july 17, 2007. The guy I liked so much was already taken by somebody else. :(( Yes, it was reality. have to face it. after my three years on longing desire heaven and earth broke my heart into pieces.
- - - -
so now, you already know why the hell im typing this one. I am so sorry. I just can't find the right person to talk with this one and also, I am telling all my thoughts about him. I'll try to move away. so now, I'll clear my mind about him.
what will I miss about him? ICE CREAM. the number eleven. his smile. his hard laughs. the way he speaks. the way he cares. YM conversations. his childish actions. maharot actions. TAKAW. "batang nike". "psst kindat flying kiss". "miss". "joy, pahiram calcu." fixing his locker. staring at him. "pakalog". "mcdonald's noveleta." his hand writing. his exam papers. the way he was. the way he changed me. the sweetness in him. the pasaway in him. 'batang uhaw' about him. his braces. "Ms. O". his tribal shirt. hot fudge sundae. SHUSHIBEE. thinking of him as koko krunch. TEAZERS at Glorrietta. his converse apparels and lastly, his name. joseph.
By now, I know this thing will happen. problem is, I was not ready to face this thing at this point of time. But I learned a lot from him. three years was long enough. I love him so much that no one can barely explain. I love him so much that only God can reveal. I love him so much that I can let him go and set him free, he is happy already with what he has and I should be.
I thanks God for letting me find a better person than him. Maybe God wants me to wait for the right person for me. Maybe he knows I deserve more than I want. I'll just be happy for what Joseph has came to be. One day I'll see he will again in front of me, we'll be friends again as way want ot used to be, and for the last time. I will miss everything about you. Remember that Joy Angelie R. Orio loved you once in her life. Be happy as I am happy for you. Always pray and take care. I LOVED YOU. GOODBYE. :]
*crying*
Labels: farewell, frustrations, happy memories, heartbroken, jba
now..
wednesday. (short post)
i wished I never saw the things I saw. never hear the words I can litsen to. what a bad start to spoil my day. argh.
Math Class. talking with Alain. he was one of the trusted guys. I appreciate every single advice he tells me. no matter what, he's there and I am so grateful he was my friend. anyway, our teacher in Biology was absent so our division head was the substitute teacher. haha. so there, haha. my day was fun. but the freaking heat gave the the irritated feeling that I shouldn't have at all. napaka-init! nakakatamad magklase. I was also been scolded by our teacher. too bad. boo. and Physical Education Class was fun.
nalalabuan ako pero, that's it. face reality baby. I sure it has a reason. damn.
and to end this post. thank God. my horoscope was true. ;]
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Virgoi wished I never saw the things I saw. never hear the words I can litsen to. what a bad start to spoil my day. argh.
Math Class. talking with Alain. he was one of the trusted guys. I appreciate every single advice he tells me. no matter what, he's there and I am so grateful he was my friend. anyway, our teacher in Biology was absent so our division head was the substitute teacher. haha. so there, haha. my day was fun. but the freaking heat gave the the irritated feeling that I shouldn't have at all. napaka-init! nakakatamad magklase. I was also been scolded by our teacher. too bad. boo. and Physical Education Class was fun.
nalalabuan ako pero, that's it. face reality baby. I sure it has a reason. damn.
and to end this post. thank God. my horoscope was true. ;]
- - -
One of your past dramas has been hard to forget, but today it will finally fade.
Some past dramas are easy to forget, but some are tougher to erase from your mind than they should be. Today you will be reminded of a past situation early in the day, and unsettling feelings will hover around you all day. This is just your subconscious working things out, so let it. Do not try to push these thoughts out of your head. Just let them fade away on their own -- they will. You cannot force yourself to forget something. It just has to go away on its own.
Labels: mood swings
im gently freezing
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
so it was tuesday. oops. 24th of the month. haha. wala lang.
my day at school was good. haha. It was fun because of my friends. haha. i really love them. :)
gaah. our lesson in Math sucks. ang hirap naman noon. sobra. nakakainis. :((
anyway, one of these days. maybe, i'll end our story. mahabang blog post yun. swear. :>
so, ano pa ba. i just passed my Lab journal kanina. Okay naman. atleast lagi akong sa time nagpapasa. haha. o di ba. naks. haha. so, yun. it was quite boring. pero masaya ako. haha. All classes today are enjoyable. haha. yes, they are. haha. pero, sometimes I can't help myself looking at other room. specially sa room ng III-Argon. haha. ewan ko ba. =))
anyway, Mock Debate happened today. topic? political dynasty. haha. so, this was the debate of the third year students only. ako? negative side. haha. sorry, it was just my way. haha. negative na meaning, payag ako sa political dynasty. haha. pero, kung sa politics kasi. opposition ako e. so, no offense. haha. I never liked the way PGMA speaked. kahit kahapon, SONA. tsss. I can barely bear with the president. haha. sorry. so there, more on negative ako. all the speakers were quite good. kaso, ang ingay nung ibang audience. maybe, they were not aware of what political dynasty is. haha. I am not saying all, I repeat. some. hahaha. :)) and our dismissal time was 4:30 PM. coolness dear. haha.
and I freakin forget my book at Computer, may quiz kami doon bukas. haha. tss.
anyway, I already got my lab gown. coolness. haha. :))
my day at school was good. haha. It was fun because of my friends. haha. i really love them. :)
gaah. our lesson in Math sucks. ang hirap naman noon. sobra. nakakainis. :((
anyway, one of these days. maybe, i'll end our story. mahabang blog post yun. swear. :>
so, ano pa ba. i just passed my Lab journal kanina. Okay naman. atleast lagi akong sa time nagpapasa. haha. o di ba. naks. haha. so, yun. it was quite boring. pero masaya ako. haha. All classes today are enjoyable. haha. yes, they are. haha. pero, sometimes I can't help myself looking at other room. specially sa room ng III-Argon. haha. ewan ko ba. =))
anyway, Mock Debate happened today. topic? political dynasty. haha. so, this was the debate of the third year students only. ako? negative side. haha. sorry, it was just my way. haha. negative na meaning, payag ako sa political dynasty. haha. pero, kung sa politics kasi. opposition ako e. so, no offense. haha. I never liked the way PGMA speaked. kahit kahapon, SONA. tsss. I can barely bear with the president. haha. sorry. so there, more on negative ako. all the speakers were quite good. kaso, ang ingay nung ibang audience. maybe, they were not aware of what political dynasty is. haha. I am not saying all, I repeat. some. hahaha. :)) and our dismissal time was 4:30 PM. coolness dear. haha.
and I freakin forget my book at Computer, may quiz kami doon bukas. haha. tss.
anyway, I already got my lab gown. coolness. haha. :))
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(pic from ciarra, edited by joy)staring was this picture makes me realize a lot of things. first, for me, river flows freely. wala lang. naaliw ako. parang all people has his or her rights pero minsan parang nadidictate na rin ng ibang tao the things we want and need to do. wala, naiinis lang ako.
second, the picture reminds me of forever. you, do you believe in forever? yung pag sinabing, "I'llwait for you forever." pero, minsan. parang malabo. all you need to do was to accept things that they are the opposite of what you expect them to be.
third, the contrast of the color. It made me realize na all people are unique. lagi naman eh. sometimes, peoplr tend to want to be another people. pero, we can never be the same with them. all we need to do was to improve and change oursleves for the better. other people may not realize and appreaciate the things that we do pero atleast we try to prove them they are wrong and we try to improve, o diba di ba.
so there. sorry. I am reminscing again.
I'll end this post with these.
second, the picture reminds me of forever. you, do you believe in forever? yung pag sinabing, "I'llwait for you forever." pero, minsan. parang malabo. all you need to do was to accept things that they are the opposite of what you expect them to be.
third, the contrast of the color. It made me realize na all people are unique. lagi naman eh. sometimes, peoplr tend to want to be another people. pero, we can never be the same with them. all we need to do was to improve and change oursleves for the better. other people may not realize and appreaciate the things that we do pero atleast we try to prove them they are wrong and we try to improve, o diba di ba.
so there. sorry. I am reminscing again.
I'll end this post with these.
- - -
Virgo
Today, you won't let yourself out of your responsibility to be there for someone
our sense of obligation is stronger than ever, which could cause your social life to suffer a bit in the coming weeks. When faced with a choice between having mindless fun and helping someone out, you won't let yourself out of your responsibility to be there for someone special. This is a wonderful quality, and it is part of what makes you an exceptional friend. You won't miss out on the fun too much, and you'll move a relationship to the next level.
-->Happy Birthday kuya poch! :)
Labels: random, realizations
:|
Monday, July 23, 2007
it was monday again..
and i am not that in the mood to tell stories. boo. im sorry.
anyway, it was a boring day for me. sobra.
early in the morning. Si ja na naman, pumasok sa room namin. so, ginalaw niya bag ko. wala lang. all day. nagsesenti ako. wala akong mafeel. puro, kasenti-han ang napasok sa mind ko. hello. ang hirap pa rin.
naiinis ako. feeling ko talaga wala akong taleeeeeeent. :((
- - -
"it takes forever to forget.." --alain.
sobrang ang sakit nung pagkakasabi ni alain. though, nagkwekwentuhan lang kami that time. nararamdaman ko na nararamdaman niya rin kung gaano kasakit yung feeling ko. grabe. ang tindi ng words ni alain. di ko makaya.
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"masaya na nga sila. ikaw, masaya ka naman ba?" --gia.
tama rin naman. pero, kahit na. I can accept na rin things siguro with time. time heal the wounds di ba? bahala na. yun na yon eh.
- - -
"wag na siya. sasaktan ka lang niya!" --noemi.
bakit nga ba, kahit mahal mo ang isang tao. you won't count the times he would hurt you. mangingibabaw pa rin yung nararamdaman mo para sa kanya? is that the way things always should be? or it was just my way of proving?
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natapos ko na LAB report ko..
natapos ko na CHEM symbol ko..
natapos ko na assignments ko..
di ko pa tapos, buuin ulit puso ko.
ooops. :(( sorry. okay. it was drama.
chamy, pati ikaw warak na rin. :'(
and i am not that in the mood to tell stories. boo. im sorry.
anyway, it was a boring day for me. sobra.
early in the morning. Si ja na naman, pumasok sa room namin. so, ginalaw niya bag ko. wala lang. all day. nagsesenti ako. wala akong mafeel. puro, kasenti-han ang napasok sa mind ko. hello. ang hirap pa rin.
naiinis ako. feeling ko talaga wala akong taleeeeeeent. :((
- - -
"it takes forever to forget.." --alain.
sobrang ang sakit nung pagkakasabi ni alain. though, nagkwekwentuhan lang kami that time. nararamdaman ko na nararamdaman niya rin kung gaano kasakit yung feeling ko. grabe. ang tindi ng words ni alain. di ko makaya.
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"masaya na nga sila. ikaw, masaya ka naman ba?" --gia.
tama rin naman. pero, kahit na. I can accept na rin things siguro with time. time heal the wounds di ba? bahala na. yun na yon eh.
- - -
"wag na siya. sasaktan ka lang niya!" --noemi.
bakit nga ba, kahit mahal mo ang isang tao. you won't count the times he would hurt you. mangingibabaw pa rin yung nararamdaman mo para sa kanya? is that the way things always should be? or it was just my way of proving?
- - -
natapos ko na LAB report ko..
natapos ko na CHEM symbol ko..
natapos ko na assignments ko..
di ko pa tapos, buuin ulit puso ko.
ooops. :(( sorry. okay. it was drama.
chamy, pati ikaw warak na rin. :'(
Labels: frustrations, random
tssss
Sunday, July 22, 2007
*really posted july 23.*
it was sunday.. a very very boring day. I did nothing but to surf the net. and worse, sleep. :p
one of my classmates invited me sa house nila. kaso, basically. tinamad na naman ako. haha. saka, sa sobrang init ba naman! sinong hindi tatamarin?
I want a book of deadly hallows. please, haha. if ever someone has already finished reading it. can i? can i borrow it? hahaha. thanks :D
uhm. so there, I just want to share this phone conversation with my mom. haha.
mom: joy, andito pala paborito mong banda, Callalily. Dito sa world trade.
joy: ahh. opo nga. alam ko.
mom: o bakit hindi ka pumunta?
joy: eh, baka di niyo ako payagan.
mom: bakit di ka nagpaalam?
joy: sure na ako na di kayo papayag. expected ko na.
mom: sana nagpaalam ka, baka napayagan kita.
SAYANG! :)) :|
tapos, nabadtrip lang ako nung gabi kasi naman, sabi nang wag papakialaman ang gamit ko ng walang paalam. tsss. ayun. :|
--> happy fiesta kawit. :)it was sunday.. a very very boring day. I did nothing but to surf the net. and worse, sleep. :p
one of my classmates invited me sa house nila. kaso, basically. tinamad na naman ako. haha. saka, sa sobrang init ba naman! sinong hindi tatamarin?
I want a book of deadly hallows. please, haha. if ever someone has already finished reading it. can i? can i borrow it? hahaha. thanks :D
uhm. so there, I just want to share this phone conversation with my mom. haha.
mom: joy, andito pala paborito mong banda, Callalily. Dito sa world trade.
joy: ahh. opo nga. alam ko.
mom: o bakit hindi ka pumunta?
joy: eh, baka di niyo ako payagan.
mom: bakit di ka nagpaalam?
joy: sure na ako na di kayo papayag. expected ko na.
mom: sana nagpaalam ka, baka napayagan kita.
SAYANG! :)) :|
tapos, nabadtrip lang ako nung gabi kasi naman, sabi nang wag papakialaman ang gamit ko ng walang paalam. tsss. ayun. :|
yes, no, maybe.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
it was weekend again.
woke up early. haha. nag-internet. haha. naka-abot pa pala ako na magsabi kay Ms. Marnelli ng lab gown. ahaha. then, my mom told me to take a bath because she will accompany me to the mall. anway, I planned to go to the mall these past view days to buy a tes tube kasi nga, nakabasag ako. haha. so, ayon. we left the house quarter to 9.
traffic! ang init pa. una kasi, fiesta ng kawit di ba. haha. tapos, dun sa binakayan one way na lang di ba. kaya ayun. haha. nakakinis eh. ang init nga kasi. hahaha.
pumunta agad sa national bookstore. bumili ng test tube. gumala saglit to find a perfect jacket for me. haha. I really really want a new jacket. pretty please, buy me. hahaha. then ate lunch at Mcdo. haha. that's right. haha.
tapos, ayun. ako na ulit mag-isa sa mall. may mga nakita naman akong kaklase. si pam at clarisse. haha. so ayon, tapos, susunod raw si ate kmaye so I've waited for her. haha. pagadating niya. ayun. masaya. kwentuhan. gala. tom's world. karaoke. haha. lotta fun :))
tapos nilibre niya ako ng pamaypay. tapos, pinauwi na ako ng mom ko. napagalitan niya ako e. haha. ang init nung pauwi! siksikan pa sa bus. haha. pero, masaya. di naman gaanong traffic. haha.
quarter to 4 nasa bahay na ako. nag-iinternet lang ako hanggang ngayon. haha. yun lang. gumawa rin ako ng Lab Report ko sa chemistry kanina. kaso, di pa ako tapos. malabo kasi yung repost sheet. nakakainis. hahaha. :))
"c doc???"
yun lang!
*edited: 9:48 PM*
--> happy fiesta kawit. :]
woke up early. haha. nag-internet. haha. naka-abot pa pala ako na magsabi kay Ms. Marnelli ng lab gown. ahaha. then, my mom told me to take a bath because she will accompany me to the mall. anway, I planned to go to the mall these past view days to buy a tes tube kasi nga, nakabasag ako. haha. so, ayon. we left the house quarter to 9.
traffic! ang init pa. una kasi, fiesta ng kawit di ba. haha. tapos, dun sa binakayan one way na lang di ba. kaya ayun. haha. nakakinis eh. ang init nga kasi. hahaha.
pumunta agad sa national bookstore. bumili ng test tube. gumala saglit to find a perfect jacket for me. haha. I really really want a new jacket. pretty please, buy me. hahaha. then ate lunch at Mcdo. haha. that's right. haha.
tapos, ayun. ako na ulit mag-isa sa mall. may mga nakita naman akong kaklase. si pam at clarisse. haha. so ayon, tapos, susunod raw si ate kmaye so I've waited for her. haha. pagadating niya. ayun. masaya. kwentuhan. gala. tom's world. karaoke. haha. lotta fun :))
tapos nilibre niya ako ng pamaypay. tapos, pinauwi na ako ng mom ko. napagalitan niya ako e. haha. ang init nung pauwi! siksikan pa sa bus. haha. pero, masaya. di naman gaanong traffic. haha.
quarter to 4 nasa bahay na ako. nag-iinternet lang ako hanggang ngayon. haha. yun lang. gumawa rin ako ng Lab Report ko sa chemistry kanina. kaso, di pa ako tapos. malabo kasi yung repost sheet. nakakainis. hahaha. :))
"c doc???"
yun lang!
*edited: 9:48 PM*
i felt instant sadness right now. ewan ko ba, there's just something that made me this way. maybe, it was the words that he said that made me feel this way.
i feel so sorry for myself not having the things i really want for my life.i felt so sad because, until now. I am jailed by his memory. too bad for me, i find it hard to accept.
kanina, I was chatting with someone. kwinento ko sa kanya how things find their way through. sabi niya, nasaktan lang pala ako. he ven bother asked me paano raw kung nagkaroon pala siya ng chance noon? im so sorry i do not gave the chance you were looking for. sorry talaga. im so stupid.
and to you, sorry. :|
i feel so sorry for myself not having the things i really want for my life.i felt so sad because, until now. I am jailed by his memory. too bad for me, i find it hard to accept.
kanina, I was chatting with someone. kwinento ko sa kanya how things find their way through. sabi niya, nasaktan lang pala ako. he ven bother asked me paano raw kung nagkaroon pala siya ng chance noon? im so sorry i do not gave the chance you were looking for. sorry talaga. im so stupid.
and to you, sorry. :|
--> happy fiesta kawit. :]
Labels: gala, stories for the day
a week ago.
Friday, July 20, 2007
happy with a very very very long post. (so okay lang kung ayaw mo bsahin. hahaha.) *mind you, i repeat writing this post.*
my morning was spoiled. haha. and i really really mean it. haha. medyo masakit pa rin seeing A couple right in front of your eyes, na alam mong, may gusto ka dun sa guy. pero, wala kang magawa. hindi ikaw yung girl. I am happy for them pero di mo maalis sa akin yung masaktan kahit papaano. haha. he will always be here.
so, Computer yung first Class. haha. nakakainis. hands-on sana kami eh. pero, wala. uhm. yung chairs kasi sa Computer Laboratory. nasa program sa baba. tsss. haha. so, konting discussion tapos seat work na. haha. halos free time rin naman kasi nagchecheck si Ms. Ria ng mga test papers. haha. so, sila nagkwekwentuhan. haha. edi ayun. haha. nakakabadtrip lang kasi eh. naiisip ko kahit anong gawin ko. Biology Class. Discussions lang naman. ayun, after Bio. may extra 5 mins. sinayang ko. nakaupo lang ako eh. haha. ewan, dala lang siguro ng moody character ko. saka sa nangyari. naiinis lang rin talaga ako. haha.
Filipino, reporting. tsss. haha. Nung Chemistry Class, free time. o yea o yea. hahaha. nakipagkwentuhan lang ako nun. haha. pero, medyo naging okay na rin ako nugn Chem Class. salamat sa lahat ng Classmates ko! haha. so ayon. ang saya talaga pag kasama friends. the best. :]
so, almost free time. free time. haha. lunch time. hmm. wala rin ginawa eh. vanity strikes. haha. tapos, ayun. kwentuhan, tawanan. haha. wala lang. haha. masaya naman ako kasi mas nagiging close na ako sa batch namin. haha. itwasalatafan. :))
may ikwekwento pala ako. bago ako pumasok sa new building para sa program.
*humarang si ate klai. kuya albert at ate den-den.*
kuya albert: hindi ka makakapasok. haha.
ate klai: oo nga. bawal.
joy: hala po. hanggang mamaya?
ate denden: hindi. magintay ka dito.
kuya albert: teka lang. *nakahawak pa rin sila sa isat-isa para humarang.*
ate klai: lagot ka sa amin joy.
kuya albert: J____ A_____! PUMUNTA KA RAW DITO. *sumigaw. haha*
tingin naman. haha.
program : hmm. Okay. Elocution Contest. haha. I was the one who cjecked the attendance. haha. it was fun. masaya naman yung program. the thing we do? yung usual, haha. ayun.
corny. haha. kaso, pag tapos dapat uwian na di ba? Our principal decided na wag muna kami pauwiin kasi it's too early raw. Diyos ko naman. haha. edi, ayun. the principal suggested that pupils should showcase our talents (tss) haha. joke. edi ayun. kanya-kanyang turuan. sigawan pa nga. hahaha. pero, nakakainis. may mga ready na rin sana kumanta. biglang sabi nung division head na bumalik raw kami sa aming respected classrooms. Jusko!
gagawin namin? magwala. haha. hindi kami pumasok sa room. haha. kahit sabihin na may klase, expected na free time rin. haha. and so it was. 1 and 1/2 hrs free time. ngahaha. vanity strikes again. haha. kwentuhan. tawanan. haha. at trip-trip. naglaro rin pala kami. kaso, isang salita. ang init! haha. so memorable. :)
4 is dismissal time. Oh, thank God. haha. went at Mcdonald's Noveleta. haha. saya eh. treat nga pala ni gwen. haha. ayun. kami kami? dami eh. [ako. ariane. bing. gwen. jacklyn. annel. alyssa. caren. mecky. clarisse. tonya.] dami. haha. ayun. enjoyed. :)) masaya naman. naka-2 float pa nga ako. ;]]
after mcdo. punta cavite city. haha. with Caren and Jacklyn. unexpectedly. nakita ko naman si Sarah. haha. ayun. :)) 6:30 nakauwi.
ayun. sabi ko pala kay jacklyn bago ako umuwi na nahingi ako ng sign. haha. akala ko makikita ko, pero. pag-open ko ng YM. boom! hahaha. =))
my morning was spoiled. haha. and i really really mean it. haha. medyo masakit pa rin seeing A couple right in front of your eyes, na alam mong, may gusto ka dun sa guy. pero, wala kang magawa. hindi ikaw yung girl. I am happy for them pero di mo maalis sa akin yung masaktan kahit papaano. haha. he will always be here.
so, Computer yung first Class. haha. nakakainis. hands-on sana kami eh. pero, wala. uhm. yung chairs kasi sa Computer Laboratory. nasa program sa baba. tsss. haha. so, konting discussion tapos seat work na. haha. halos free time rin naman kasi nagchecheck si Ms. Ria ng mga test papers. haha. so, sila nagkwekwentuhan. haha. edi ayun. haha. nakakabadtrip lang kasi eh. naiisip ko kahit anong gawin ko. Biology Class. Discussions lang naman. ayun, after Bio. may extra 5 mins. sinayang ko. nakaupo lang ako eh. haha. ewan, dala lang siguro ng moody character ko. saka sa nangyari. naiinis lang rin talaga ako. haha.
Filipino, reporting. tsss. haha. Nung Chemistry Class, free time. o yea o yea. hahaha. nakipagkwentuhan lang ako nun. haha. pero, medyo naging okay na rin ako nugn Chem Class. salamat sa lahat ng Classmates ko! haha. so ayon. ang saya talaga pag kasama friends. the best. :]
so, almost free time. free time. haha. lunch time. hmm. wala rin ginawa eh. vanity strikes. haha. tapos, ayun. kwentuhan, tawanan. haha. wala lang. haha. masaya naman ako kasi mas nagiging close na ako sa batch namin. haha. itwasalatafan. :))
may ikwekwento pala ako. bago ako pumasok sa new building para sa program.
*humarang si ate klai. kuya albert at ate den-den.*
kuya albert: hindi ka makakapasok. haha.
ate klai: oo nga. bawal.
joy: hala po. hanggang mamaya?
ate denden: hindi. magintay ka dito.
kuya albert: teka lang. *nakahawak pa rin sila sa isat-isa para humarang.*
ate klai: lagot ka sa amin joy.
kuya albert: J____ A_____! PUMUNTA KA RAW DITO. *sumigaw. haha*
tingin naman. haha.
program : hmm. Okay. Elocution Contest. haha. I was the one who cjecked the attendance. haha. it was fun. masaya naman yung program. the thing we do? yung usual, haha. ayun.
corny. haha. kaso, pag tapos dapat uwian na di ba? Our principal decided na wag muna kami pauwiin kasi it's too early raw. Diyos ko naman. haha. edi, ayun. the principal suggested that pupils should showcase our talents (tss) haha. joke. edi ayun. kanya-kanyang turuan. sigawan pa nga. hahaha. pero, nakakainis. may mga ready na rin sana kumanta. biglang sabi nung division head na bumalik raw kami sa aming respected classrooms. Jusko!
gagawin namin? magwala. haha. hindi kami pumasok sa room. haha. kahit sabihin na may klase, expected na free time rin. haha. and so it was. 1 and 1/2 hrs free time. ngahaha. vanity strikes again. haha. kwentuhan. tawanan. haha. at trip-trip. naglaro rin pala kami. kaso, isang salita. ang init! haha. so memorable. :)
4 is dismissal time. Oh, thank God. haha. went at Mcdonald's Noveleta. haha. saya eh. treat nga pala ni gwen. haha. ayun. kami kami? dami eh. [ako. ariane. bing. gwen. jacklyn. annel. alyssa. caren. mecky. clarisse. tonya.] dami. haha. ayun. enjoyed. :)) masaya naman. naka-2 float pa nga ako. ;]]
after mcdo. punta cavite city. haha. with Caren and Jacklyn. unexpectedly. nakita ko naman si Sarah. haha. ayun. :)) 6:30 nakauwi.
ayun. sabi ko pala kay jacklyn bago ako umuwi na nahingi ako ng sign. haha. akala ko makikita ko, pero. pag-open ko ng YM. boom! hahaha. =))
nga pala, pictures. :))
autistic si micha. :p
group pic
Platinum Girlsand I was frustrated for only one reason. I won't tell. wala lang. kasi naman e. feeling ko tuloy wala talaga akong talent sa buhay ko. first of all, I was not the athletic type of person that you will know. yes, I can play some sports pero di yung ganun kagaling. hay. tapos, singing and dancing? sus. wala rin ako dun eh. I dont even have the voice to sing a line of a particular song in public. tapos, playing instruments? wala rin eh. wala talaga. passion sa music, meron. pero. wala akong talent with those stuffs. so please, tell me. bakit ganon? :|
Thank God. Okay lang sa iyo. :]
good night.
Thank God. Okay lang sa iyo. :]
good night.
Labels: happy memories, stories for the day
labo pa rin eh :)
Thursday, July 19, 2007
sino bang nagsabi na makakaya ko pala? :p
hahaha. july 19th. so, what I thought. I can't leave him. hindi mawala feelings ko. kahit anong gawin ko, he was still the best and still the person who brought my happiness. pero, syempre. not like before. kung happy siya. happy ako. haha.
woah. woah talaga. haha. pagdating ko kasi sa school, napakaingay! maririnig mo yung mga taong nasigaw at tawa ng tawa. haha. at ayun, syempre. sa amin ang may pinaka maingay. 3 kasi ang may birthday sa batch namin ngayon. yehey. :))
so, first class was Math. and I do not know why I was in the mood at that time. parang ang saya kasi eh. haha. so ayun, Math was hard in some ways. pero, okay na rin. naintindihan ko namana yun kahit papano. kailangan ko talagang maintindihan kasi lowest score ko ung math nung Mid- Quarter. tsk tsk.
early break kami as usual. hahaha. kaso, nung Bio. wala pa nga kaming nadidiscuss, lumabas ng room yung teacher to fix some things up. eh, ayun. lagi na lang kami late sa lessons. hay. ang nangyari, 10 na siya nakabalik. time na. hay.
tapos, Quiz sa filipino. uhm. nung Chemistry. ang ingay koooo! kasi, may game. eh, plus two. haha. basta. ngayon ko lang yata na-enjoy ang Chem? haha. basta, masaya ayun. :))
nung lunch. Diyos ko! nadedehydrate na yata ako. hahaha. napakainit ba naman! wala pang maayos na inumin. haha. akala ko nga nawala nexk tie ko eh. since lunch wala na akong neck tie. haha. basta, ang init init nung lunch. haha. Okay. =)
English. as usual, ako na naman ang maingay. hahaha. ayun. tama bang sentance ang.. "I am looking for someone who will place ___." ayy hala. haha. kamusta naman yon. haha. sila kasi eh. haha. tawanan lang tuloy kami ng tawanan. hahaha. :)) ang syaa ng buhay eh. =)
SS. omigahd. hirap nito. group activity. respinsible rin sana ang group mates ko. :]
tapos, Geom. hmm. ayows! masaya ako. hahaha. sobrang natutuwa ako sa mga nangyayari. haha. nung Computer naman kasi. nag discuss lang. wahaha. :]]
"titingin tingin ka dyan." haha. wala lang. ang labo talaga ng mundo. hahaha. kung kailan nga naman wala sa tamang timing. hahaha. lagi na lang. nakakainis na.
kanina pala. nung lunch. haha. edi, ang init di ba. haha. hindi ko akalain na gagawin nila yun. haha. bilangin ba namann kung ilang beses ako nagmura. hahaha. at sa 4o mins na lunch namin. 19 ang nasabi ko. haha. Okay. so, matindi? :))
anyway. yun lang. medyo tadtad ako ng school works eh. haha. ayun lamang. :]
Congrats pala sa lahat ng honor pupils. Congrats at Goodluck sa mga bagong Angles Staffers. at goodluck sa mga kasali sa elocution. haha.
woah. woah talaga. haha. pagdating ko kasi sa school, napakaingay! maririnig mo yung mga taong nasigaw at tawa ng tawa. haha. at ayun, syempre. sa amin ang may pinaka maingay. 3 kasi ang may birthday sa batch namin ngayon. yehey. :))
so, first class was Math. and I do not know why I was in the mood at that time. parang ang saya kasi eh. haha. so ayun, Math was hard in some ways. pero, okay na rin. naintindihan ko namana yun kahit papano. kailangan ko talagang maintindihan kasi lowest score ko ung math nung Mid- Quarter. tsk tsk.
early break kami as usual. hahaha. kaso, nung Bio. wala pa nga kaming nadidiscuss, lumabas ng room yung teacher to fix some things up. eh, ayun. lagi na lang kami late sa lessons. hay. ang nangyari, 10 na siya nakabalik. time na. hay.
tapos, Quiz sa filipino. uhm. nung Chemistry. ang ingay koooo! kasi, may game. eh, plus two. haha. basta. ngayon ko lang yata na-enjoy ang Chem? haha. basta, masaya ayun. :))
nung lunch. Diyos ko! nadedehydrate na yata ako. hahaha. napakainit ba naman! wala pang maayos na inumin. haha. akala ko nga nawala nexk tie ko eh. since lunch wala na akong neck tie. haha. basta, ang init init nung lunch. haha. Okay. =)
English. as usual, ako na naman ang maingay. hahaha. ayun. tama bang sentance ang.. "I am looking for someone who will place ___." ayy hala. haha. kamusta naman yon. haha. sila kasi eh. haha. tawanan lang tuloy kami ng tawanan. hahaha. :)) ang syaa ng buhay eh. =)
SS. omigahd. hirap nito. group activity. respinsible rin sana ang group mates ko. :]
tapos, Geom. hmm. ayows! masaya ako. hahaha. sobrang natutuwa ako sa mga nangyayari. haha. nung Computer naman kasi. nag discuss lang. wahaha. :]]
"titingin tingin ka dyan." haha. wala lang. ang labo talaga ng mundo. hahaha. kung kailan nga naman wala sa tamang timing. hahaha. lagi na lang. nakakainis na.
kanina pala. nung lunch. haha. edi, ang init di ba. haha. hindi ko akalain na gagawin nila yun. haha. bilangin ba namann kung ilang beses ako nagmura. hahaha. at sa 4o mins na lunch namin. 19 ang nasabi ko. haha. Okay. so, matindi? :))
anyway. yun lang. medyo tadtad ako ng school works eh. haha. ayun lamang. :]
Congrats pala sa lahat ng honor pupils. Congrats at Goodluck sa mga bagong Angles Staffers. at goodluck sa mga kasali sa elocution. haha.
- - - -
Virgo
If you're involved in a competitive contest today, you will overcome any setbacks.
Your heart is strong today, and you are sure in every movement. If you're involved in any type of competitive contest today, you will be able to overcome major and minor setbacks with ease. Your mental game is strong, and opponents will suffer from premature cockiness. Be careful about assuming victory before it is achieved. You need to stay hungry, and stay on your toes. Just because you are the better competitor does not always mean that you will win.
--> Happy Birthday Eubrey Busalanan
--> Happy Birthday Mecky Yenko
--> Happy Birthday Gwen Guerrero
Labels: steady, stories for the day
im already torn
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
july 18th was not my day.
seriosuly, depress was killing me. since last night, I cried and I cried. And to tell you, I got my heart broken again. It sucks to face the truth when I've got no reason to it so better don't ask me a question why I feel the way I do.
Looking at the mirror the moment I woke up swollen and reddish eyes suprised me. para akong may sore eyes tapos singkit pa. nakakainis noh. hahaha. so there. syempre. malungkot ako. alangan masaya pa rin ako despite of everything.
pero, siguro God me reasons to smile pa rin. Callalily was guests on Unang Hirit kanina. sobrang swerte ng school na yun! grabe. sana ganoon din school ko. kaso, asa pa! hahaha. pero, bago umalis. naisip ko lang ulit. wala, napaiyak na naman ako. ayun, sabi ko kay kuya bakit laging ako tapos laging para sa kanya. I kept on asking myself. tapos, kasabay namin si Sir Alvin sa trike. :)
the moment I arrived at our room. una nilang napansin yung mata ko. tahimik lang ako. dumungaw na lang ako sa bintana. andoon si Angelique sa tabi ko. tapos, naiyak ako. hay. di ko na napigilan pumunta ako sa CR. tapos, bumalik ako sa room. okay na sana ako, kaso. inexcuse ako ni ate bett. tapos, hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kanya yung gusto kong sabihin, umiyak na ako ng todo. I let Gia told them what happened. tapos, ayun. I can merely bear with myself. pero, the way I saw how people care for me, natouch ako. nagpunta pa rin ako ng CR. doon, nasabi ko lahat. sobra. naisip ko kung gaano rin pala karami ang kaibigan ko. but still, hindi ganito kadali yun. then with that situation? hindi madali.
Our adviser was absent and I was the Class president so I toom over our Class. may sub na teacher, si Ms. Grace. ayun. tapos, break time. Biology Class na saglit lang nagdiscuss kasi nagbigay yung teacher ng 20 mins break. :p hahaha. then Filipino Class, lesson lamang. tapos, Chemistry. hmm. lessons ulit. ngaha.
then, lunch. hmm. wala akong masabi sa lunch. ang tahimik ko rin kasi. oo, ang hirap pa rin talaga. wala, senti. ayun. Computer Class na hands on ng boys. medyo okay na rin ako ng computer class. salamat talaga sa lahat ng kaibigan ko! :) eh, naigayan samin yung division head. ayun. galit na galit na naman. hay. SS Class. Lessons lang sila ng lessons eh. the same with English. Nung geom, wala si Ms. Carla so si Ms. Jean. tapos, yung PE Class, ang sakit ng katawan ko! sobra! nakakainis yun. hahaha.
so, that's it. that's my day. I can feel he knew something about how he broke down my world into pieces. pero, nag labo niya ngayon. all I need to do was to be happy for myself and also to them. and all I got to believe that maybe, he's not really the one God meant for me.
pero, ewan. nakakalungkot. :(
so eto ako, nakikinig ng love songs. haha. yun lang..
Virgo
seriosuly, depress was killing me. since last night, I cried and I cried. And to tell you, I got my heart broken again. It sucks to face the truth when I've got no reason to it so better don't ask me a question why I feel the way I do.
Looking at the mirror the moment I woke up swollen and reddish eyes suprised me. para akong may sore eyes tapos singkit pa. nakakainis noh. hahaha. so there. syempre. malungkot ako. alangan masaya pa rin ako despite of everything.
pero, siguro God me reasons to smile pa rin. Callalily was guests on Unang Hirit kanina. sobrang swerte ng school na yun! grabe. sana ganoon din school ko. kaso, asa pa! hahaha. pero, bago umalis. naisip ko lang ulit. wala, napaiyak na naman ako. ayun, sabi ko kay kuya bakit laging ako tapos laging para sa kanya. I kept on asking myself. tapos, kasabay namin si Sir Alvin sa trike. :)
the moment I arrived at our room. una nilang napansin yung mata ko. tahimik lang ako. dumungaw na lang ako sa bintana. andoon si Angelique sa tabi ko. tapos, naiyak ako. hay. di ko na napigilan pumunta ako sa CR. tapos, bumalik ako sa room. okay na sana ako, kaso. inexcuse ako ni ate bett. tapos, hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kanya yung gusto kong sabihin, umiyak na ako ng todo. I let Gia told them what happened. tapos, ayun. I can merely bear with myself. pero, the way I saw how people care for me, natouch ako. nagpunta pa rin ako ng CR. doon, nasabi ko lahat. sobra. naisip ko kung gaano rin pala karami ang kaibigan ko. but still, hindi ganito kadali yun. then with that situation? hindi madali.
Our adviser was absent and I was the Class president so I toom over our Class. may sub na teacher, si Ms. Grace. ayun. tapos, break time. Biology Class na saglit lang nagdiscuss kasi nagbigay yung teacher ng 20 mins break. :p hahaha. then Filipino Class, lesson lamang. tapos, Chemistry. hmm. lessons ulit. ngaha.
then, lunch. hmm. wala akong masabi sa lunch. ang tahimik ko rin kasi. oo, ang hirap pa rin talaga. wala, senti. ayun. Computer Class na hands on ng boys. medyo okay na rin ako ng computer class. salamat talaga sa lahat ng kaibigan ko! :) eh, naigayan samin yung division head. ayun. galit na galit na naman. hay. SS Class. Lessons lang sila ng lessons eh. the same with English. Nung geom, wala si Ms. Carla so si Ms. Jean. tapos, yung PE Class, ang sakit ng katawan ko! sobra! nakakainis yun. hahaha.
so, that's it. that's my day. I can feel he knew something about how he broke down my world into pieces. pero, nag labo niya ngayon. all I need to do was to be happy for myself and also to them. and all I got to believe that maybe, he's not really the one God meant for me.
pero, ewan. nakakalungkot. :(
so eto ako, nakikinig ng love songs. haha. yun lang..
Virgo
Things that challenged you will make sense today -- it's a good day to be tested.
Intellectually challenging things will make a lot of sense to you today, so it's a good day to readdress a project or book that has been vexing you. You'll find a great aptitude for understanding complicated ideas around philosophy, politics and economics. If you're being tested or challenged in any of these areas today, expect things to go very well. The dots are finally getting connected in your mind, and you can see how everything works together.
Labels: frustrations, steady
status
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
okay na sana ang araw na ito eh.
my morning was good. pero, it was my first time na nagwala ako sa school. I repeat, nagwala ako sa school. sorry because this was the way I am, wala akong hinhin ss kilos ko, hindi nga ako mahinhin eh. napakagaslaw ko. anyway, bakit ako nagwala? its just pretty simple. betrayal. so that's it.
Math and Biology Classes were good. haha. filipino class : late teacher. halos. 30 mins kaming walang ginagawa? ok. ayun. haha. then, nung Social Studies Class. medyo seryoso kami. Si Sir Alvin kasi, he's planning to resign as a teacher meaning he was not satisfied with what the way our school treats teachers. Sir Slvin was a good teacher for all you know. kahit ganun na hindi kame ganung kaclose, naiitindihan ko naman. mahirap kasi yung pamamalakad ng school eh. oops. no offense. haha.
then, Chemistry Class came. hmm. experiment number two. haha. It was better than the first one, I supposed. haha. pero, ako kasi yung naglinis ng 2 test tube. di ko alam kung kanino yung isa. pero, yung isa, kablag! nabasag. uhh-oh. patay ako nito eh. haha. i'll replace it of course.
tapos, while I was walking upstairs. pinapababa kami (galing kaming lab non ah) hahaha. so, andoon daw kasi yung division head sa taas. hello. lunch namin. pupunta kami sa locker. hello. haha. edi, sinabi ko sa division head na kukuha pa kami ng gamit. haha. eh, "now!" raw. haha. edi, inulit ko kasi naiinis ako. haha. ayun. haha. taray nun. hahaha. kahit kailan.
English Class was fun. haha. Me, Noemi, Micha are reminscing of the days na naiyak ako nun nung first year pa ako. kung paano ako napapaiyak ni Micha. haha. galing noh. awww. tapos, nagsulat lang kami ng autobiography. Geometry Class reveloves around constructing. haha. yung project. oyeah oyeah. :)) and CL Class was about lies and decpetion.
My day was really fine. I never felt sadness but dismissal came. I wished I was just blind not to see those people talking. Yeah, it it true that it was hell hard to accept the truth. Silence ate me. I was thinking and will keep on thinking.
Basically, making a decision was really really hard. you have to balance things but if they were not meant to be balance, one must give up for it to be happy again. I don't expect from the beginning. It was just that I love too much that nothing really happens. sabi nila, bakit raw pag sa kanya, ang lakas lakas ko. pero. bakit ngayon ang hina hina ko. hindi ko nga alam kung tama ba ako eh. saka bakit the number "13" was really really unluncky for me. bakit? was there an explanation for that? bakit ako, alam ko naman kung may nasasaktan ako. bakit sila? porket ba ganun. okay na. sana nagisip rin sila di ba. bakit pag ako, ayaw nila ako pagbigyan. bakit ganoon. hindi ba talaga nila makita lahat? di ko alam saan ako nagkulang. pero, bakit ganoon. bakit?
if this happens, it was my second time to ba heartbroken. damn.
if you ever wondered what was one of my greatest weakness in life, it is about the guy I love so much. basically, loving someone who doesn't love you back was part of felling in love. I am not saying anything about the person I really like the most. It is just that I am so sad and I don't know whom I will talk to or I cannot find a way on how I can express my feelings and thoughts.
I have a personal decision to make, making this decision will really really change my life. from the start I know that this time will come, this time will happen and this time is really something to think about. maybe, it is just because I really wait for so long. that I rwally liked him a lot though he has his imperfections and basically, three years was long enough. three years was long for me, basically being an eleven year old child wouldn't know what really love is. but as I grew older, I have learned that love can really break me. break me into pieces that it hurts so much. Even I myself, can't understand what is really happening to me. I do not know if I am just jealous or not or if there were things that I really shouldn't start at all. I do not know if I was in the right time to say something like this. And it was really hard for me to accept things easily.
I cannot undestand why they cannot understand me in the first place, bakit ganoon. ewan ko na.
I will just leave a quote here na sinabi ng pinsan ko.
damn. :|
ended this post crying.
my morning was good. pero, it was my first time na nagwala ako sa school. I repeat, nagwala ako sa school. sorry because this was the way I am, wala akong hinhin ss kilos ko, hindi nga ako mahinhin eh. napakagaslaw ko. anyway, bakit ako nagwala? its just pretty simple. betrayal. so that's it.
Math and Biology Classes were good. haha. filipino class : late teacher. halos. 30 mins kaming walang ginagawa? ok. ayun. haha. then, nung Social Studies Class. medyo seryoso kami. Si Sir Alvin kasi, he's planning to resign as a teacher meaning he was not satisfied with what the way our school treats teachers. Sir Slvin was a good teacher for all you know. kahit ganun na hindi kame ganung kaclose, naiitindihan ko naman. mahirap kasi yung pamamalakad ng school eh. oops. no offense. haha.
then, Chemistry Class came. hmm. experiment number two. haha. It was better than the first one, I supposed. haha. pero, ako kasi yung naglinis ng 2 test tube. di ko alam kung kanino yung isa. pero, yung isa, kablag! nabasag. uhh-oh. patay ako nito eh. haha. i'll replace it of course.
tapos, while I was walking upstairs. pinapababa kami (galing kaming lab non ah) hahaha. so, andoon daw kasi yung division head sa taas. hello. lunch namin. pupunta kami sa locker. hello. haha. edi, sinabi ko sa division head na kukuha pa kami ng gamit. haha. eh, "now!" raw. haha. edi, inulit ko kasi naiinis ako. haha. ayun. haha. taray nun. hahaha. kahit kailan.
English Class was fun. haha. Me, Noemi, Micha are reminscing of the days na naiyak ako nun nung first year pa ako. kung paano ako napapaiyak ni Micha. haha. galing noh. awww. tapos, nagsulat lang kami ng autobiography. Geometry Class reveloves around constructing. haha. yung project. oyeah oyeah. :)) and CL Class was about lies and decpetion.
My day was really fine. I never felt sadness but dismissal came. I wished I was just blind not to see those people talking. Yeah, it it true that it was hell hard to accept the truth. Silence ate me. I was thinking and will keep on thinking.
Basically, making a decision was really really hard. you have to balance things but if they were not meant to be balance, one must give up for it to be happy again. I don't expect from the beginning. It was just that I love too much that nothing really happens. sabi nila, bakit raw pag sa kanya, ang lakas lakas ko. pero. bakit ngayon ang hina hina ko. hindi ko nga alam kung tama ba ako eh. saka bakit the number "13" was really really unluncky for me. bakit? was there an explanation for that? bakit ako, alam ko naman kung may nasasaktan ako. bakit sila? porket ba ganun. okay na. sana nagisip rin sila di ba. bakit pag ako, ayaw nila ako pagbigyan. bakit ganoon. hindi ba talaga nila makita lahat? di ko alam saan ako nagkulang. pero, bakit ganoon. bakit?
if this happens, it was my second time to ba heartbroken. damn.
if you ever wondered what was one of my greatest weakness in life, it is about the guy I love so much. basically, loving someone who doesn't love you back was part of felling in love. I am not saying anything about the person I really like the most. It is just that I am so sad and I don't know whom I will talk to or I cannot find a way on how I can express my feelings and thoughts.
I have a personal decision to make, making this decision will really really change my life. from the start I know that this time will come, this time will happen and this time is really something to think about. maybe, it is just because I really wait for so long. that I rwally liked him a lot though he has his imperfections and basically, three years was long enough. three years was long for me, basically being an eleven year old child wouldn't know what really love is. but as I grew older, I have learned that love can really break me. break me into pieces that it hurts so much. Even I myself, can't understand what is really happening to me. I do not know if I am just jealous or not or if there were things that I really shouldn't start at all. I do not know if I was in the right time to say something like this. And it was really hard for me to accept things easily.
I cannot undestand why they cannot understand me in the first place, bakit ganoon. ewan ko na.
I will just leave a quote here na sinabi ng pinsan ko.
"Minsan, nakasakay ako sa barko, naisip kita. Di ko namalayan na napaluha ako at tumulo sa dagat. Nangako ako na pag may nakakita ng luha ko. Doon pa lang kita malilimutan."
damn. :|
boombastic
Monday, July 16, 2007
my day was all about expecting.
sometimes, I expect too much. akala ko kasi things are bound to happen for me. pero, okay na rin. I mostly expect the unexpected. pero, minsan di mo maiiwasan mag expect kahit papaano di ba?
so obviously, I went to school. hahaha. but my morning, was so stressful. I got a low grade in our Math Exam. poor thing for me. so, medyo wala ako sa mood nun. pero, I know it's my fault. pero, wala. bawi tayo next time. :)
then, the following time was kind of fun. early break so mahaba break time namin. sobrang saya makipag kwentuhan, hahaha. usap usap tungkol sa mga pangyayare. hahaha. tungkol sa danita. sa poster. hahaha. and all the stuffs we want to talk about. haha. so, now I am expecting to bond more with my batchmates. expect.
then, puro free time halos? haha. halos walang ginagawa eh. boring talaga. haha. so almost free time ng free time. kahit nung filipino at Social Studies class namin. so yun lang. :D
then lunch. kain syempre. isa yata yun sa masayang lunch ko. (may ganun? :p) oo. isa nga yun. ang saya eh. hahaha.
I expect low grade in Chemistry. Thank God medyo mataas naman ako. Thanks talaga! as in. Chemistry sucks big time for me kasi. hahaha. and so with Science and kind of Math. Ang gusto ko lang naman kasi sa Math yung mga Statistical problems. hahaha. Weakness ko rin naman ang Science minsan. tsss.
then expect 'chimis' from people. haha. sobrang natuwa ako sa mga classmates ko kanina. wala yata akong tampo sa kanila ngayon or what. sobrang saya. It seems like kahit wala akong tropa, friend ko na rin talaga lahat eh.
I think that was the one of the weirdest thing about me. yung wala akong tropa. meron akong kasama kumain, bumaba or what. pero, we're not considering ourselves as a tropa. parang pag tropa kasi, privacy lang ng tropang yun lahat. pero. ewan ko rin. =)
expect yehey in the afternoon. haha. so nung Lunch II kwentuhan lang ng kwentuhan. haha. enjoy na enjoy naman ako. haha. kwentuhan with ate Klai and some batchmates. haha. galing noh. :p
English time was hella fun. haha. tawa nga ako ng tawa eh. baliw. haha. then. it's free time again. usapang CAT. ewana ko kay Alain bakit niya naisipan na pagusapan yun. haha. nice topic naman eh. haha. masarap naman kasi kausap si Alain. may sense. hahaha.
pero, ibahin mo ako. ewan ko bakit ganoon. hindi na ako sanay makipag text with boys. (hindi naman yata lahat) simula talaga noon nung naloko ako. Hindi na ako sanay na may katext na lalaki. haha. pero, friends ko rugby. sila pa!
then. Geometry Class was Boom! 2 mistakes. Okay na yun. :) then, free time again. haha. (naulan ng free time) :p
Christian Living Class was uhh-oh. nagalit sa amin si Ms. Jean eh. to the point that talagang natakot ako. nasabi ko sa katabi ko na nakakatakot pala galitin ng ganun siya. hahaha. grabe. pero, okay na rin sila. nagkaayos nung uwian.
uwian, naiwan ako ng kasabay ko. kamusta yun? hahaha. si jacklyn kasi eh. haha. joke lang. tapos, yun lang. hmm. wala na akong maisip. :)
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I miss a lot of people right now. miss ko na yung friends ko sa II-Gold. at may isa pa.. pinsan ko si Doc. I think the last time na nagkwentuhan kami was 2 weeks ago. nakakamiss lang kasi, parang wala siyang time lagi or busy lagi or ewan ko na. He's my closest cousin. saulo na yata ako nun eh! siya lahat ang may alam kung may katampuhan man ako. nakakamiss lang kasi.
so there, I am expecting a change. please. :))
and I expect something from you. :P
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tomorrow is tuesday. :))
sometimes, I expect too much. akala ko kasi things are bound to happen for me. pero, okay na rin. I mostly expect the unexpected. pero, minsan di mo maiiwasan mag expect kahit papaano di ba?
so obviously, I went to school. hahaha. but my morning, was so stressful. I got a low grade in our Math Exam. poor thing for me. so, medyo wala ako sa mood nun. pero, I know it's my fault. pero, wala. bawi tayo next time. :)
then, the following time was kind of fun. early break so mahaba break time namin. sobrang saya makipag kwentuhan, hahaha. usap usap tungkol sa mga pangyayare. hahaha. tungkol sa danita. sa poster. hahaha. and all the stuffs we want to talk about. haha. so, now I am expecting to bond more with my batchmates. expect.
then, puro free time halos? haha. halos walang ginagawa eh. boring talaga. haha. so almost free time ng free time. kahit nung filipino at Social Studies class namin. so yun lang. :D
then lunch. kain syempre. isa yata yun sa masayang lunch ko. (may ganun? :p) oo. isa nga yun. ang saya eh. hahaha.
I expect low grade in Chemistry. Thank God medyo mataas naman ako. Thanks talaga! as in. Chemistry sucks big time for me kasi. hahaha. and so with Science and kind of Math. Ang gusto ko lang naman kasi sa Math yung mga Statistical problems. hahaha. Weakness ko rin naman ang Science minsan. tsss.
then expect 'chimis' from people. haha. sobrang natuwa ako sa mga classmates ko kanina. wala yata akong tampo sa kanila ngayon or what. sobrang saya. It seems like kahit wala akong tropa, friend ko na rin talaga lahat eh.
I think that was the one of the weirdest thing about me. yung wala akong tropa. meron akong kasama kumain, bumaba or what. pero, we're not considering ourselves as a tropa. parang pag tropa kasi, privacy lang ng tropang yun lahat. pero. ewan ko rin. =)
expect yehey in the afternoon. haha. so nung Lunch II kwentuhan lang ng kwentuhan. haha. enjoy na enjoy naman ako. haha. kwentuhan with ate Klai and some batchmates. haha. galing noh. :p
English time was hella fun. haha. tawa nga ako ng tawa eh. baliw. haha. then. it's free time again. usapang CAT. ewana ko kay Alain bakit niya naisipan na pagusapan yun. haha. nice topic naman eh. haha. masarap naman kasi kausap si Alain. may sense. hahaha.
pero, ibahin mo ako. ewan ko bakit ganoon. hindi na ako sanay makipag text with boys. (hindi naman yata lahat) simula talaga noon nung naloko ako. Hindi na ako sanay na may katext na lalaki. haha. pero, friends ko rugby. sila pa!
then. Geometry Class was Boom! 2 mistakes. Okay na yun. :) then, free time again. haha. (naulan ng free time) :p
Christian Living Class was uhh-oh. nagalit sa amin si Ms. Jean eh. to the point that talagang natakot ako. nasabi ko sa katabi ko na nakakatakot pala galitin ng ganun siya. hahaha. grabe. pero, okay na rin sila. nagkaayos nung uwian.
uwian, naiwan ako ng kasabay ko. kamusta yun? hahaha. si jacklyn kasi eh. haha. joke lang. tapos, yun lang. hmm. wala na akong maisip. :)
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I miss a lot of people right now. miss ko na yung friends ko sa II-Gold. at may isa pa.. pinsan ko si Doc. I think the last time na nagkwentuhan kami was 2 weeks ago. nakakamiss lang kasi, parang wala siyang time lagi or busy lagi or ewan ko na. He's my closest cousin. saulo na yata ako nun eh! siya lahat ang may alam kung may katampuhan man ako. nakakamiss lang kasi.
so there, I am expecting a change. please. :))
and I expect something from you. :P
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tomorrow is tuesday. :))
Labels: random, stories for the day
danitatatata. :))
Sunday, July 15, 2007
july 15, 2007
this morning, sad to say. I was not in the mood to talk to people. sorry. ang sama talaga ng loob ko kanina, this goes with my family. so, wala ako sa mood. ayun.
after I ate lunch, I cried. siguro dahil sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, ewan. pero, I admit. I am wrong.
but don't get us wrong. I went to Danita gig at SM Bacoor. di not watch Callalily here inCavite for the very first time. syempre, I'll catch Danita. haha. so ayun. went there with ate klai. biglang back out si ate bett eh.
Danita band with Kollide band (si carlo aquino vocalist nila) so much fun. after, an hour of waiting. sobrang sulit ng CD. hahaha. sobrang saya.
at syempre, nung autograph signing. hindi ganun kahigpit. haha. napakasaya talaga eh. hindi ko makakalimutan lahat ng mga pinagusapan namin. haha.
this morning, sad to say. I was not in the mood to talk to people. sorry. ang sama talaga ng loob ko kanina, this goes with my family. so, wala ako sa mood. ayun.
after I ate lunch, I cried. siguro dahil sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, ewan. pero, I admit. I am wrong.
but don't get us wrong. I went to Danita gig at SM Bacoor. di not watch Callalily here inCavite for the very first time. syempre, I'll catch Danita. haha. so ayun. went there with ate klai. biglang back out si ate bett eh.
Danita band with Kollide band (si carlo aquino vocalist nila) so much fun. after, an hour of waiting. sobrang sulit ng CD. hahaha. sobrang saya.
at syempre, nung autograph signing. hindi ganun kahigpit. haha. napakasaya talaga eh. hindi ko makakalimutan lahat ng mga pinagusapan namin. haha.
with ate danita :)
performing
kuya poch
kuya moman
among all of them, the person I am closest too is kuya xtian and kuya dan. sila talaga yung madalas kong nakakausap. si kuya xtian, siya pa rin ang bunso ko. forever yan. :)
basta, sobrang saya eh. di ko ma-explain ng ayos. sobrang nakakatuwa. :">
at home at 7:45 PM.
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its been a year, mga 7 PM yata nun. and until now it was still fresh from my memory. ngayon? wala na talaga eh. :p
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masaya ako ngayon. pero at the same time, kinakabahan ako para bukas. bigayan ng test papers eh!
goodnight. =)
basta, sobrang saya eh. di ko ma-explain ng ayos. sobrang nakakatuwa. :">
at home at 7:45 PM.
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its been a year, mga 7 PM yata nun. and until now it was still fresh from my memory. ngayon? wala na talaga eh. :p
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masaya ako ngayon. pero at the same time, kinakabahan ako para bukas. bigayan ng test papers eh!
goodnight. =)
Labels: firsts, gig, happy memories, realizations
ran away
July 14
my saturday was kinda boring. almost nothing to do at home. I was surfing the internet and texting when Micha went to our house and asking me if I can come with them (Micha and Maan) to went to Rolaine's house. I said yes.
But don;t get me wrong. I lose myu money which is just in our home. that's what the hell I am saying. nawawalan ako ng pera nasa bahay lang.
so we wnet to Rolaine's house. It was fun. It was my first time there. Okay naman. haha. then, we ate at Mcdonald's Noveleta where I saw ate Klai.
then, when I went home. I chat with my batchmates. then, I think unti 6:30. we were chatting until my freaking brother came into scene. so, stupid. me and my brother fought and seriously, I was the one scolded. so, I got pissed when my grandmother told me 'lumayas' and so I did. I did.
I went to Ciarra's house. I was so grateful I found one of the true friend I am finding. hindi ako pinaiyak ni Sosa. Masaya dun sa house nila. alam niya naman kung bakit ako pumunta sa kanila eh. Salamat talaga Ciarra, salamat. :)
It was past nine when I got home, not talking to anybody else.
and that's it. sorry.
But don;t get me wrong. I lose myu money which is just in our home. that's what the hell I am saying. nawawalan ako ng pera nasa bahay lang.
so we wnet to Rolaine's house. It was fun. It was my first time there. Okay naman. haha. then, we ate at Mcdonald's Noveleta where I saw ate Klai.
then, when I went home. I chat with my batchmates. then, I think unti 6:30. we were chatting until my freaking brother came into scene. so, stupid. me and my brother fought and seriously, I was the one scolded. so, I got pissed when my grandmother told me 'lumayas' and so I did. I did.
I went to Ciarra's house. I was so grateful I found one of the true friend I am finding. hindi ako pinaiyak ni Sosa. Masaya dun sa house nila. alam niya naman kung bakit ako pumunta sa kanila eh. Salamat talaga Ciarra, salamat. :)
It was past nine when I got home, not talking to anybody else.
and that's it. sorry.
-->Happy Birthday John Monton
Labels: sad day
13.13.13.
Friday, July 13, 2007
friday the thirteenth.
so malas raw, pero, not really. haha.
So, last day of our 1st Mid-term exams. Biology, Asian History and Geometry was out last exams. anyway, it was the hell hard.
the Biology exam was not really hard. I answered it straight but, uhh-oh. mental block ako sa labelling. haha. left 2 blanks. tsssk. Oh no! haha. then during break time, we studied again at the library so ayun. wala akong masabi. :)
And SS exam sucks. haha. nyeta! nahirapan ako dun! and not realizong na 10 mins na lang may 5 questions pa pala sa likod! napakahirap nun! Diyos ko. hahaha. and seriously..
muntik na kaming magaway ng best friend ko. bakit kasi yung ingay kay ja niya lahat sinisisi? nakakainis kasi. hindi lang naman yung tao yung maingay eh. and for the fact na wala naman si ja sa room namin. oo, maingay pero hindi kasing ingay nung iba (yung mga babae kaya maingay) so nainis ako. sinisisi niya eh. siya rin naman daldal ng daldal mano ba namang tapusin yung exam at wag na magsaway. para saan pa saan pa kaya ang teacher? tsss. (so pinagtanggol ko siya. hahaha. :p)
last exam was Geometry and boom! Medyo madali. o yes, hahaha. hindi ako umiyak! yehey.
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then, umuwi muna ako bago oumunta ng mcdo dahil doon ang meeting place. :)
at mcdo with Paulene, Alyssa, Alain, Gio, Tomo, Justine at JS. :) kumain kami doon. haha. kaso, di na namin naitay sina Jacklyn. natakot kasi kami.. kanino? dun sa pipe sa mcdo. si Alain kasi eh. mga kwinekwento :)
anyway, inabot kami ng ambon at ulan bago maksakay. kasi naman sina jacklyn eh! haha. joke lang. infairness ang sweet naman ni Alain. haha. ( nga pala, Alain was my first crush when I was in Prep.) pero, ngayon. hindi na, friends. :>
so went to SM traffic.
tapos, pagdating sa sm. nanood sine. cinema 2 yata ulit kami nanood? tama ba? :))
nilibre nila ako ng popcorn( JS) at iced tea (jacklyn) hahaha. salamat ah! :))
so we watched:
Harry Potter 5: the movie was pretty good but I agree that the earlier series was better than this one. Okay na rin. Medyo nalabuan ako sa ibang parts. Medyo di ko type itong book na ito. parang puro betrayal and stuffs, haha. at walang Quidditch, nakakainis. favorite ko lagi pag may ganun. hahaha.
tapos, stroll around the mall. oh, well nagpa-picture kami. haha. then, umuwi na rin. hehe.
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so. yung internet sa laptop ko, sira na naman. (ano ba iyon. nakakainis naman)
napasnin ko labg, sobrang dami yata ng may sakit ngayon. lagnat, sipon, ubo, asthma, lahat na. weather kasi eh. di ba? ang labo kasi ng panahaon. ayan tuloy. kaya kung may sakit ka man, pagaling. :>
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Virgo
Labels: gala, happy memories
SILNULIT?
Thursday, July 12, 2007
*read the title the old way.*
you left me hanging over here.
so, it was my mom's birthday today. happy birthday to her. =)
so my day went (it was not really bad at all) I am just confused. ayun, tama. you left me hanging over here. exams kanina? okay naman yung English. wala naman akong problem with it. yung filipino exam. okay na rin, problema ko lang dun di ko alam kung pormal, di-pormal o pangkalahatan. haha. tapos -2 raw ang hindi maglagay ng surname nung teacher. so ano yon? haha. di ko alam e. :p
Chemistry sucks. haha. as in. sobra. naiinis na ako.
so ayun lang makwento ko, di nagana utak ko sa ayos ngayon eh.
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*sa harap ng canteen, naguusap tungkol sa pagpunta sa mall bukas.*
Paulene: Joy, kasama ka bukas di ba?
Jacklyn: Oo, kasama yan.
Joy: Bakit? Ayaw mo. *tumawa*
Paulene: Manonood ka rin ng sine?
Joy: Oo naman, Harry Potter ah.
Jacklyn: Wag, tiyanaks na lang.
Paulene: Wag na tiyanaks.
Joy: Oo nga, nagkasundo kami ni Poleng. haha. Harry Potter na lang.
Paulene: Harry Potter? wag ka nang sumama!
Joy: Bakit naman?
Paulene: masasaktan ka lang.
Joy: dahil sa kissing scene ni Harry? (ano ba nasa isip ko, haha)
Paulene: manonood sila ng sine eh yung Harry Potter kasi ayaw nung isa yung nakakatakot.
Joy: ah. silang dalawa lang?
Paulene: oo yata.
DAMN. :( :|
nakakalungkot.
yun lang. magaaral na ako.
--> Happy Birthday mama. :)
--> Happy Birthday papa ni jan2. :)
you left me hanging over here.
so, it was my mom's birthday today. happy birthday to her. =)
so my day went (it was not really bad at all) I am just confused. ayun, tama. you left me hanging over here. exams kanina? okay naman yung English. wala naman akong problem with it. yung filipino exam. okay na rin, problema ko lang dun di ko alam kung pormal, di-pormal o pangkalahatan. haha. tapos -2 raw ang hindi maglagay ng surname nung teacher. so ano yon? haha. di ko alam e. :p
Chemistry sucks. haha. as in. sobra. naiinis na ako.
so ayun lang makwento ko, di nagana utak ko sa ayos ngayon eh.
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*sa harap ng canteen, naguusap tungkol sa pagpunta sa mall bukas.*
Paulene: Joy, kasama ka bukas di ba?
Jacklyn: Oo, kasama yan.
Joy: Bakit? Ayaw mo. *tumawa*
Paulene: Manonood ka rin ng sine?
Joy: Oo naman, Harry Potter ah.
Jacklyn: Wag, tiyanaks na lang.
Paulene: Wag na tiyanaks.
Joy: Oo nga, nagkasundo kami ni Poleng. haha. Harry Potter na lang.
Paulene: Harry Potter? wag ka nang sumama!
Joy: Bakit naman?
Paulene: masasaktan ka lang.
Joy: dahil sa kissing scene ni Harry? (ano ba nasa isip ko, haha)
Paulene: manonood sila ng sine eh yung Harry Potter kasi ayaw nung isa yung nakakatakot.
Joy: ah. silang dalawa lang?
Paulene: oo yata.
DAMN. :( :|
yun lang. magaaral na ako.
--> Happy Birthday mama. :)
--> Happy Birthday papa ni jan2. :)
Labels: confused
seating arrangement
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
*this text message was sent by ate treena early in the morning. haha. pakibasa na lang.*so that's it.
last night, I also prayed to God na sana ako ang una. basta ako. hahaha.
I woke up so early, and went to school so early. 6:30 nasa school na ako. if you really knew me, hindi ka maniniwalang papasok ako ng ganoong oras. hahaha. pero, kailangan eh.
I think it was 6:44 in my watch at nagawa ko naman yung pinagdasal ko, pero ewan. parang wala lang. hahaha.
naiinis ako nung umaga. sila kasi eh. ako raw ba ang batiin? tama ba yun? nakakahiya kaya.
so our first exam was Christian Living. Okay naman, hindi ako nahirapan. Nung break time, ang daming tao sa canteen eh. so sa library kami nag-aral. (salamat naman at nagamit na ng tama ang library. hahaha) then, after break time, Computer exam. medyo mahirap yung shirtcut keys eh. hahaha. so ayon, medyo nahirapan ako. at ang nakakainis pa, nakalimutan kong i-indicate yung plus two. sayang rin yun! 2 pts. nakakainis naman.
And I cried again.. this was again the time na umiyak ako while answering an exam. Last exam namin is Math. at dahil paulit ulit na ako dun sa isang sinosolve ko. nagcra-cram na ako. I think the last 15 minutes of our test, iyak na ako ng iyak. haay. minsan nga naman, weakness ko rin ang Math. pero, wala. 4 points rin yun eh. sayang. I ended up crying. ayun, hindi ko na mapigilan yung sarili ko, ewan. ang labo. dagdagan mo pa ng ibang bagay na makikita mo, nakakaiyak lalo.
pero, natouch ako. wala, natuwa lang ako sa mga classmate kong lalake. =)
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edi, palabas na Harry Potter 5. ewan, baka sa friday pa kami manood, after exams.
so tomorrow, exams are English, Filipino and Chemistry. haha. so mag-aaral na ulit ako. hahaha.
*I don't want to post my horoscope kasi ayoko. =)
--> Happy Birthday Joseph Abundo. :)
Labels: jba, mood swings, stories for the day
tomorrow is.. :| :))
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
july 10th. haha. Okay, 1 more day to go before.. EXAM. tss. kala mo ano na ano =))
so basically, we did nothing but ro review, review and review. haha. wala akong makwento except this thing. It was my first time na magtampo sa isang teacher ng ganoon. obvious naman eh, for the period of that teacher, hindi ako nagsasalita. May nalaman kasi ako na may kwinento raw siya tungkol sa akin sa ibang year level which is not true naman, so though alam ko, dala lang marahil ng sense of humor nung teacher, kaya nangyari yun.pero, i understand the teacher na rin, maybe. ganun talaga. haha. kaso, wala. nasira plano ko. kakainis naman. hahaha.
I am about to expect I am going to fail Chemistry, and I will really will.
English Class is 45 minutes free time. hahaha. yun ang masaya sa lahat. =)
and because of the very long time we did nothing, I told my best friend yung matagal kong, hindi nakwento sa kanya. :p
My day was good. haha. though, yun nga. naiinis lang talaga ako sa nangyari. pero, okay naman. dapat kaya masaya. o di ba. :p
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naiinis ako kanina. uulan tapos, titila agad. uulan tapos, aaraw. uulan ng medyo malakas, titila ulit. pero, official na, may bagyo. ayun.
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exams tomorrow= CL, TLE, Math, nice. haha.
tomorrow is- love, harry potter 5. opening. :)
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nga pala, sira internet ng laptop ko, laptop ko lang. yung sa brother ko. okay. ayy, ewan. ayoko na ng laptop na yun! :p
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so ayun, di pa ako nag-aaral sa Math. haha. :))
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spoof horoscope ko o. :p (namin pala. haha)
so basically, we did nothing but ro review, review and review. haha. wala akong makwento except this thing. It was my first time na magtampo sa isang teacher ng ganoon. obvious naman eh, for the period of that teacher, hindi ako nagsasalita. May nalaman kasi ako na may kwinento raw siya tungkol sa akin sa ibang year level which is not true naman, so though alam ko, dala lang marahil ng sense of humor nung teacher, kaya nangyari yun.pero, i understand the teacher na rin, maybe. ganun talaga. haha. kaso, wala. nasira plano ko. kakainis naman. hahaha.
I am about to expect I am going to fail Chemistry, and I will really will.
English Class is 45 minutes free time. hahaha. yun ang masaya sa lahat. =)
and because of the very long time we did nothing, I told my best friend yung matagal kong, hindi nakwento sa kanya. :p
My day was good. haha. though, yun nga. naiinis lang talaga ako sa nangyari. pero, okay naman. dapat kaya masaya. o di ba. :p
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naiinis ako kanina. uulan tapos, titila agad. uulan tapos, aaraw. uulan ng medyo malakas, titila ulit. pero, official na, may bagyo. ayun.
- - - -
exams tomorrow= CL, TLE, Math, nice. haha.
tomorrow is- love, harry potter 5. opening. :)
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nga pala, sira internet ng laptop ko, laptop ko lang. yung sa brother ko. okay. ayy, ewan. ayoko na ng laptop na yun! :p
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so ayun, di pa ako nag-aaral sa Math. haha. :))
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spoof horoscope ko o. :p (namin pala. haha)
Virgo
This day has the potential to be a good day or a bad day -- it all depends on you.
This day has the potential to be a good day or a bad day -- it all depends on your attitude. If unpleasant news arrives in the morning and you focus on what a bummer it is, of course the rest of the day will be blah. But if you hear that bad news and try to focus on finding the silver lining within it, guess what? Things will start to pick up as the day moves forward, and by tonight, you will have forgotten all about whatever happened in the morning.
Cancer
Keep walking on the wild side a bit more today, and you'll see that it can pay off.
Lately you've been taking a lot more risks -- and have you noticed how much they've been starting to pay off? Keep walking on wild side a bit more today, and you definitely will. The old saying 'Nothing ventured, nothing gained' is truer than ever in your life, so venture forth and explore the unknown today. Be a little bit more open with your feelings, and be a little bit more open with your mind. Do something new just for the sake of experiencing it for the first time.
Leo
Can you have too many friends? Today, you need to prioritize all your relationships.
Can you have too many friends? Today, it might feel as though you're being overwhelmed by social invitations left and right -- sure, it's a flattering problem to have, but it is a problem nonetheless. It's time for you to prioritize the relationships in your life, because sooner or later you will have to choose one person over another. Just make sure you know in advance who's tops on your list. Here's a tip: the person who's at the top of your list should have you at the top of theirs, too.
Labels: stories for the day
